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(star)
yes, my real name is star. and before you start asking, no i'm not a stripper. honestly it's such a coincidence that my name is star because i'm obsessed with stars. i always have been. i don't think i'll ever get tired of them. sometimes when i'm sad or lonely and i just feel like the world is completely falling on top of me, i look up and see a sky full of stars. they're really calming. you can just look up at them with a smile shining on your face and they will look right back at you with just as much shine. a fun fact is that we live in one of the many galaxies called the milky way. the milky way alone has about 100 thousand stars in it. outside the milky way, there are millions upon millions of galaxies with thousands upon thousands of more stars.

my spirit animal is a wolf. i never really knew why but i've always had a special connection with them. i would always as a child want to go to the zoo to see the wolves. i would only want to see the wolves. which means that we would skip all the other animals and just see the wolves. then we would leave. i know it sounds crazy to just go to the zoo to see one animal but you can't really see a wolf anywhere else, unless you're crazy and want to get your head chopped off.

anyways...today is my birthday. i'm turning 17. i've been really excited because i'm going to be finally one year away from being free and to live life. but lately my whole family has been keeping their distance. i mean i'm not expecting a big party or anything but all i want is them to just hang out with me and act normal. they keep keeping secrets from me. now and then i would hear them mumbling about something starting at 12am one night. honestly i thought they were thinking of going to a strip club at 12am. but as soon at they saw me, they shut their mouths very quickly.

i'm an only child which means that i never really had anyone to hang out with. i never had a big bro to beat up the bullies at school. i never had a big sis to help me when my first period started or when i wanted to wear make up for the first time. i also never had a little sis or little bro to teach all the things i have done wrong in life to them so they can learn form my mistakes. the closest ive been to ever having a sister was my best friend layla. layla was the sweetest and nicest best friend anyone could ever ask for. see how i say "was". well when layla and i were very very young, we went to the lake to play and throw rocks. we have been there many of times together but today was special. today was layla's birthday. just layla and i were sitting by the lake sharing some food that our moms had packed us for our little trip down to the lake. layla and i wanted to go swim in the lake. i knew that i was the better swimmer out of both of us so i was always the one going the deepest into the lake. on that day layla was so confident that she could swim farther than me. we both knew she couldn't. she swam out too far and once i had realized that she didnt come back to surface, i knew something terrible had gone wrong. i swam over to her and tried my best to get her out of the water. but i was too late.

thinking back to that memory and tear shed my face. i knew layla wouldn't want me to be crying but i just wish she was here right now. i sucked it up and tried to move on. i know layla would want me to.

my mom walked into the kitchen where i was sitting wishing me a happy birthday. my dad had just gotten off of work and as he walked through the door i saw a cookie cake in his hands. i run up to him like a child and take the cookie cake right out of his hands. "thanks dad" i said while kissing him on the cheek and running to the kitchen table to dig into my tasty cake. my mom and dad both laugh as they also take some of the cookie cake.

once we all ate the rest of the cake, we sat down on the couch to watch my favorite movie. "Five Feet Apart". i cry as it starts getting to the end. once the credits start to roll, i stand up sobbing and clapping. my mom and dad stare at my like i have gone loco.

once the movie was over, i said good night to my parents and they said good night to me. i walked into my bedroom picking out some comfy pj's. i walked into my shower that is connected to my bed room and turn the water to scorching hot. i slip off my clothes then walk over to my shower. as i get in i feel the burning hot water after on my back. just how i like it.once the water stared to turn cold, i slip out of the shower and i quickly turn the water off. i grabbed a towel and dry my self off. once i'm in my comfy pj's i cuddle up under my warm blankets waiting for sleep to overcome my body.

11:59pm
i wake up in the middle of the night walking into my bathroom have to pee really bad. once i'm done doing my peeing. i get up washing my hands because i'm clean. i look into the mirror seeing my ratchet hair bunches up into a birds nest. i stare at myself a little longer before i see my eye color change from a nice chocolate brown to a bright green. that was odd. my eyes never change color. once again my eye color flickers to the green once again. finally it stops and just stays at the color green. at first i'm in shock, until i fall onto the floor screaming as i feel all of the bones in my body crack. my bones were burning until i couldn't handle it anymore. i soon feel someone lifting me up and carrying me to my bed. i don't know who until the last thing i heard was my mom and dad telling that i'm going to be alright.

(a/n: oof there is probably so much cringe happing all at once. lol sorry this story was just about star and none of the gorgeous ethan dolan. but i think he'll come in on the 2nd chapter. well good night my loves:) don't forget to vote even though you probably won't lol.)

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