"You can try as much as you want, Jeon Jungkook, but I'll never fall for you ever again."
Her eyes pierced straight through my soul with rage and sorrow. The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face. The world turned into a blur, and so did all the sounds. The taste. The smell. Everything was gone. The last painful emotion slammed against me before I lost the sensation of feeling.
There she stood silently in front of me, her eyes avoiding mine continually, arms crossed in front of the chest as she dug her fingernails into her skin.
"Vivian." I cried out, pleading with my glossy eyes of tears, I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child. "Forgive me."
She sighed deeply, and with that, I knew I had disappointed her, that I had failed her.
Behind me stood the other in silence, not daring to speak a word as the tension build up with every second passing by. The hallway was filled with students, most of them keeping their distance for good.
In the crowd I notice Claire. Clingy, bothersome, wicked Claire. Standing there with her legs crossed like a child, pouty lips covered in layers of lipgloss dripping down and her eyes squeezed slightly together as she watched the scene in front of her. The sight of that girl had my mouth watering, not with saliva, with vomit.
Desperately, I reach out for Vivian's hands, grabbing them in my own but instantly she yanked herself away from me. Ouch, the pain stung in my chest, seeing the only one I care for in front of me with teary red eyes, rejecting me for the last time.
Breathe, I tell myself, breathe, everything will fix itself eventually.
"Don't ever show your face to me again," She began talking louder, tears streaming down her face like a river, "you lied to me!"
I swallow up the torturing pain, the cramping feeling going down my stomach, making it nearly possible to keep myself together.
"I never meant to lie, the only thing that matters to me if your safety, I wanted to keep you safe!" I gently hold her face between my palms, wishing she would listen to me for once, just in a moment.
"Keeping me safe, from what? The truth?" Vivian aggressively removed my hands from her warm face, her eyes that previously overflowed with rage and fury had been drowned in water and sorrow.
"Vivian," I call out her name in a whimpering tone, it was as if I was becoming miserable, unable to keep a straight face anymore.
But too late it was, the girl turned herself around, not daring to glance back at me nor the crowd. And with that, she was storming out the front door of the school.
In that moment of loss, my world collapsed. Everything around me had fallen apart, everything seemed unclear and blurry. My stomach formed painful knots, reaching out to what felt like every organ in my body, leaving me almost limp at my spot.
No, I screamed to myself inside my head, this was too unreal to be true. It was indeed the truth, at least I hadn't realized that yet, simply I was too caught up in the scene that I hadn't yet understood she really left me. A hysterical cry wouldn't bring her back, pleading with all I had wouldn't bring her back, she had left that day, left me and walked out of my life.
The school was already almost empty, people were leaving quickly which didn't bother me much. I had nowhere to go anymore, she didn't want me home, neither did she want me to stay anywhere near her.
"Jungkook?" A little concerned voice called out my name in front of me. I look up to see a pair of brown eyes looking into my own, ruffled hair and sweaty clothes. "Are you okay?"
It was Park Jimin, standing there with bend knees and being fully out of breath. Peals of sweat were slowly running down his forehead as he tried to gain his strength.
I wasn't near okay, but even if so, I had never shown that emotion to anyone, not Jimin nor any of the other boys. The tears had dried out on my cheeks but my eyes were still red from crying, even though I still found them rolling down every few minutes. I had lost track of time, perhaps I had been here for hours.
"Jimin, I prefer to be alone right now."
The short boy in front of me sighs, apparently not getting my message cause suddenly he was sitting next to me against the wall. His doe eyes turned to look into mine, and within them it was clear he felt sympathy towards me, somehow it was almost comforting.
"This is all Namjoon's fault, he tricked you into hurting her simply for the sake of himself and his plans of revenge. I'm sorry Jungkook." Jimin said, staring blankly at the lockers in front of us.
He was right with that accusation, Namjoon had ruined everything, tricking me into thinking I was doing the right, but it was all for him to be satisfied.
I look at Jimin, something suddenly rising in me and gave me a thought.
"He isn't gonna get away with it so easily."
