Poetry

Afraid of My Emotions

I'm wired to feel things

I'm tired of feeling things

Emotions are like trash

Disgusting and unwanted

Maybe I'm afraid of

What my emotions might make me do

People say to wear your heart on your sleeve

But I don't understand how to do that

Why anyone would do that

Maybe the reason I think

Having your emotions run free

As they can be

Is because my emotions

Have always controlled me

So to deal with the fact

That no matter what I did

I still let the sadness and the loneliness

Come packing in

So I became afraid of the darkness

And in a attempt to feel like i was in control

I locked all my emotions away

In the depths of my now empty heart

I put on a mask

Pretending to be who I truly wasn't

But then she came along and fell in love with me

I was happy for a while

As I was still trying to figure out my emotions

When she broke my already empty heart

I thought it wasn't possible to be able to fall to the bottom

And still be able to fall deeper

Once again I took the unwanted emotions and

Trashed them like they were garbage

I filled the empty hole my emotions left with

Working myself to exhaustion

But it didn't fill the hole

And once again I was left confused

With no idea how to fix my problem