A Dead Soul

Chapter 3

My day starts the same as yesterday. Just like always my life is a cycle everyday is the same, no change just torture and hurt and emptiness.

You know how people say you can't love others if you don't love yourself ,but if you don't know how to love, how do you learn? How do you wake up one day and say 'I'm gonna learn how to love, by myself' . You can't, you need others to teach you, others that love you to share the love they give, to lift you when your down. You need someone to support you, to teach you how to love in the first place.

Your not just gonna sit around all day stare at a wall and suddenly say you love yourself. But what if that's all you can do, just stare at a wall emotionless and empty? Well you end up like me.

Reliving the same day over and over, not being able to do anything to help yourself.

You see I just realized, I do have a purpose. I'm a punching back the last thing Alpha Martin has to hold on too, he doesn't care about being Alpha, he has no purpose but to torture me. So I'm his punching bag. But I still don't think that's a good reason to be alive. Life is just a space in time where there are prominent events like falling in love or doing something legendary. So if you can't make anything prominent happen what's the point? Well it's simple, there is none, none at all.

And this is my sad but true reality.

This goes threw my mind as I tell Payton my story, if you can call it that.

She actually gave me a lot of food and water, which I'm thankful for.

"... and now here I am." I finish. She looks at me with a tear stained face in horror.

" They took your wolf?" She asks gently

I nod in response.

" So that's why your eyes are so, so..."

"Empty?" I finish the sentence for her

She covers her mouth to muffle her cries and nods.

After a while of silence I ask " What's it like to be a normal 17 year old?"

" Ummm, well I guess it's great compared to your situation" She says know siting in front of me cross legged " Apart from worrying about mates it's nice I guess"

At the mention of mates I think about my wolf and how much I miss her. Tears begin to fill my eyes. I blink quickly to get rid of them.

" Oh my god I'm sorry that's a sensitive topic isn't it!?" She says

" Oh no, sorry you just made me think of my wolf." I say with a blank expression as usual.

" Ok" Is all she says. " Hey why do you never smile?"

" Cause there is nothing to smile about, sometimes I laugh thinking about how shit my life is." I say with a slight smile and I grimly chuckle

To my surprise she is tying to hold in a laugh.

" Do those chains hurt?" Got she asks a lot of questions. If I'm being honest pain does affect me but at least it makes me feel something so instead of loathing it, I cherish it. But the silver of the chains just numb my wrists and ankles.

" No, they don't." Is all I answer

Payton then goes on to talk about some boy she likes and that likes her back but there not mates so they can't be together, she talks a lot. Which I like cause I don't talk much.

My mind drifts of to the topics of mates. Do I want a mate? Yes I do but only to get my wolf back, other than that I don't because that person would be mates with emptiness. If I even have a mate, which I probably don't cause a mate is a soulmate as in your souls are made perfectly for each other, and well my soul was taken so I doubt I have a mate.

Before we know it it's dark out and Payton has to go.

" I'll come back tomorrow and I will bring food and water" She says before standing up

" Hey wait I have two things two say. One, come in the afternoon. And two, What pack are you from?" I ask in an empty tone

" Oh I'm in the Black shadow pack." My mouth opens in shock. The Black shadow pack is by far the largest and most powerful pack in the world.

" Bye!" She shouts before she closes the bunker doors.

Here I am in darkness and silence again.

The next day my morning is as usual, but Payton doesn't show up that evening.

Huh that's weird, from the short time I've known Payton she doesn't seem like the type to just not show up.

The next morning is the same apart from it was Alpha Martin to beat me, he himself has never taken advantage of me in sexual way so there where different types of torture today.

I'm expecting Payton not to show up again but I am proved wrong when I hear her squeal as she comes into the bunker with a sandwich and a large bottle of water.

" Sorry I didn't come yesterday Snow, there was another pack merging with my pack and I found my mate!!!" She says handing me the food and jumping up and down.

She proceeds to tell me how she is actually a lesbian and how amazing her mate Stacey is.

I just sit here and pray she isn't taken away from me like everything is.

Do you like Payton? Will she tell her pack about Snow?

What do you think about snow?

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