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chapter 4: the video

So the next day i woke up and hit my lip. I forgot i had a new piercing. So I got ready and I left. So on my way to school I got my friend. She looked at me and saw the piercing.

"Hey when did u get your lip pierced." She asked.

"Yesterday it still hurts." I said

"Who else knows that you got your lip pierced."

"Steve he watched me get it pierced."

We got to school and school and went to class. I was happy because we are going to do s video. When school was over i walked with my friend to her house. We were getting ready for a video. I got a text from somebody i don't know.

Hey weirdo nice piercing. I surprise you got it. I thought you were a dumbass befor but now i think you are even a bigger one. So what are going to next.

I was trying to ignore it but I couldn't. What is wrong with people I thought. So when we got to the video we introduced ourselves. After the video we were going to post it on youtube like tomorrow. So after we did the video I went home. I went on my laptop and went on Facebook. I put a post of me getting a lip piercing and a picture. People started to put comments on it

" you look weirder then normal."

" you should never do that you look ugly."

" you look like a vampire what happened did you get bit by one."

"Now you look like a slut."

I was upset and wasn't happy. My friend sent me the video we took. I watched the video.

I found a razor blade that had dried up blood and cleaned it. I ended cutting myself because what the kids said to me. I went to bed early. I asked to stay home today. I had to go to therapy every week to calm me down so I don't commit suicide. I am on anti depression medicine. And other medicine to calm me down. I get a text from April saying she is staying home. I fall back asleep and i have a dream of when i was trying to kill myself. Why did i dream think about that. Every time I think about it it ends up haunting me.so today is Friday and today we are going to post the video. I was talking to my friend Stephenie over the phone and said that she is going to move.

"Why are you going to move?" I asked

"I don't know i am just moving." She said.

"Where re you moving to?" I asked.

"Pencilvenia."

Wow I can't believe one of my bestfriends are moving. I didn't ask when but I know it wasn't her choice.

So when i went on youtube I saw our video. Nobody has watched it yet. Well we did just put it on. I got another message and I answered back to leave us alone. I had to finally answer back. I was tired and wanted to go sleep. So when i was on my bed when i saw something. Nobody was home so i looked around the house. I thought someone must have broken in. So i look around and nobody was there so I thought it was my imagination.