Ultimately

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Psa since a lot of you are getting confused on this.

This text means their thinking
And this text means their talking in they're heads.

Hope that clears things up fa y'all

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I woke up to screaming babies and blue was upset too. "Syren get dressed we got a shoot today" Ocean yelled throwimg a shoe at me. "Bitch" I yelled and then I slapped her on the back. "Damn" bey yelled then I held something fall to the grown. We looked at eachother and ran downstairs. Once we got down there she was in the kitchen leaning on the counter. "Damnit" bey said frustrated before grabbing the pot off the ground. Shawn ran into the kitchen with Blue in his arms

"Baby you ok" he said walkimg over to her. She nodded but I knew it hurt cause she looks hurt. "Yea Jay just my back can you look at it for me" she said and I looked at Oceans back to see a bright red bruise on it. He looked at beys back and it was a hot red bruise and I immediately felt bad. "Sorry bey" I said and she looked at me. "What you mean" she asked me. "I hit Ocean you must've felt it" I said with my head low. I heard her sigh then she pulled me in for a huge. "Its ok" she whispered in my ear before kissing my head.

God as much as I want to hate this woman I actually can't. She gives me this sense of security that I haven't ever felt before and it's something that makes me warm on the inside. It's like she's the missing part I've longed for. I went from not having anyone except my sister to having a full family, living in a mansion, and being a teen model. Bad things have happened to me but I can't blame her forever.

"Momma can me and Syren have our friends over?" I asked hoping she would say yes because after our shoot my day is opened.

"Not today babies, but maybe after you guys get better. Okay?" She was holding Sir while Jay was holding Rumi.

"Okay" I shrugged and climbed right into their bed. Quickly Ocean came and laid by Jay while I got by Bey.

"Do y'all wanna watch a movie?" Bey asked looking at us

"Can we watch When the bough breaks?"

"Okay" Jay shrugged and put the movie on. As we sat comfortable Jay got up to put Sir and Rumi in their cribs. I rested my head on Beyoncé's shoulder with my leg draped across her, I was basically laying on top of her. She had a hand resting on the back of my head and a hand resting on my back securely.

For the first time in a long time I felt safe

Ocean I called out, I don't know if she's sleep on not but I'm to comfortable to move right now

Yes Syren she sounds tired

I'm sad I finally said

Why Sy I could tell she became alittle more alert when I said that

I'm sad, because I know one day we have to leave and go back to the hotel. I really don't wanna go because when I get attached, I don't ever wanna leave

I never thought about how we have to leave soon I could tell she got sad just by how her voice cracked

I wanna cry I'm not a crybaby ass person, crying makes me feel weak. In this case I needed to get it out, I found my mom and I'm gonna loose her in the same week.

So that's just what I did. I grabbed onto beys shirt the tightest I could and just cried.

"Baby what's wrong?" She asked me wrapping her arms tight around me. I could here Jay trying to calm Ocean down but it wasn't working.

"Baby if you want us to help you, you have to talk to us" she managed to get on her feet with me clinging to her body. She started to rock me while drawing little circles on my back with her thumb. Eventually my cries turned into whimpers. I wiped my tears before I put my head into her neck, still holding on to her as tight as I can.

"Baby what's wrong? Talk to me" she sat on the bed and started to run her fingers through my hair.

"Me and Ocean have to leave soon. It makes me so sad, cause I shouldn't want to stay with you as much as I really do" I sighed and pulled her closer if even humanly possible.

"You aren't going anywhere. Baby now that we have you we aren't gonna let go of you again" she whispered into my ear.

"Now get some rest baby" I nodded and in no time I went to sleep with my arms wrapped around my mother