Have you ever felt like you just can't keep going on anymore, you feel like ending it all. I've felt that way before but I found an anchor, someone that makes you keep going. Someone who make you feel like you have to live for them. For me that's my sister, I think of her and I realize I need to live on for her. She has been through so much losing me would kill her. I don't know why I'm writing this but for some reason it seems important to say. No one should feel like they can't handle what life has given them. I under stand how that feels and it's bad. I've been in a point in my life where a girl from school destroyed almost everything I have. She destroyed my relationships my happiness and she took my friends from me. No one understood how I felt. They would say I'm dramatic or that I'm just mad because they are trying to help me. I hated everything about it and I had no help because anyone and everyone that would help me was on her side. They were drawn to her until she messed up and she had her "friends" stripped from her. I'm cool with her now but I'd never like her ever. She took the things I loved most from me. But she couldn't take my sister. I'm so thankful to have a sister who has gone through something close to what I was going through. I felt so bad that I couldn't be thier to help her through the pain. She lives in California and I live in Texas so we are very far apart but we are so close. I've understood that anytime I'm feeling down that I should be thinking of her and how this would effect her if I wasn't here. She doesn't have very mony people and because of how close we are and how much we need each other that I couldn't hurt her like that. For some odd reason we think our emotions are connected because I'll be happy and having a great time but then randomly I will be super sad or angry and I dont know why. Then she texts me how she feels. She says that that happens to her too and that I know when something is wrong with her or she knows something is going on with me. I've only started writing this because for some reason everything hurts and i know something bad is going to happen. My sister says she felt it to but she doesnt feel it as strong. I need my sister and i know she needs me. My sister is my everything and is couldn't live without her. I can't wait till the moment she is back in my arms and I know for a fact I'll be crying. I haven't seen her for almost 2 years and it's been terrible. I'll write something later when I feel more pain coming 9r when I figure out why I'm in so much pain.
