Kay.
you don't have to reply to this.
hell, you don't even have to read this.
i wouldn't.
but I did something horrible to you
i betrayed your trust completely
i thought it would help, and i didn't think of the consequences or how you would feel.
and that's pretty fucked up.
you have every right to be as mad as me as you want for as long as you want.
you don't even have to talk to me again.
i would hate for this to come to that, but i understand that it may
cause i fucked up
royally.
and i can't make excuses, i can't hide behind false truths because what i did was horrible. an absolute dick move
but not even that- probably something worse.
so i'm just going to put this here.
like oh i did such a shitty thing i understand if you never want to talk to me again cause what i did can't be reversed
but Kay i love you with all my heart, we've known eachother for two years and after how much we've gone through i can't imagine not being friends with you. I would always help you out when your friends were being rude and you would do the same for me- we'd talk through guy stuff together and i'd get mad at people in your life who treated you unfairly. It's kind of ironic how I'm that person now. Not that i don't deserve to be-
And Kay, i don't want to loose you. I'll give you as much space as you need, as much time. Time to be fûcking pissed at me, time to recover. But I understand if you don't wanna go back to the good old days of asking me about my brother or dancing with your sisters. because i don't deserve that. i've betrayed your trust and please don't feel like you have to be friends with me again.
Because i totally understand.
and Kay, the last thing I want to do is manipulate you. I won't twist my words, I won't lie. ask me a question, you'll get a blatant and honest answer. cause that's what you deserve.
girl, you deserve anything. and you certainly did not deserve what I did to you. I violated your personal space to such an extent- and that was not cool.
at all.
Kay, I love you so much.
Please surround yourself with people who make you feel happy, comfortable and safe.
and if i'm not one of those people, that's okay.
