undesirable ☾n.h story

5 || attacks

five - chels

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it has been weeks since i talked to niall.

but during those weeks every time we pass each other or in class he would gave me a warm smile sometimes even a "hello" which i gladly return and makes me all giddy inside.

it's home time now and i usually go from the back side of the building - the same place where i saw niall sitting alone - but the funny thing is the gates where closed so i have to go from the normal hallway.

which in this time of the day it's very packed with students,

very crowded.

i've managed to prevent crowded places for a long time but why are the fucking gates closed?!

want it or not i need to pass through this crowded and yet noisy hallway.

maybe if i stay here long enough most of the students went home already and it wouldn't be so crowded.

so i waited

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it's been fifteen minutes but i could still hear all those students in the hallway.

they don't even decrease a bit.

fuck if i'm not home by four my mom's gonna kill me.

i stand from my seat in class - which is now empty - and make my way out the door.

and having a class in the end of the hallway doesn't help a bit.

i take a deep breath before running out the door down the hallway.

but in reality i wasn't running i was still inside my class holding the door handle.

okay chels just close your eyes and get out of the fucking class.

i'm out of the door and i could already feel my head pounding, my heart was beating like crazy and i was about to walk back into my class but not until i couldn't even see the door anymore.

i inhaled and exhaled a couple times to calm myself but it isn't working.

i start to walk slowly among the sea of people but it made it worst, i was tousled here and there by people saying "sorry" everytime someone pushes me even though it wasn't technically my fault.

my brain is now very confused, i don't even know where i'm going anymore.

it seems like the room was just spinning and everyone was laughing and pointing at me.

i was scared,

terrified at the most.

i feel like a panic attack coming soon.

but i saw the front door; it was so close.

i gain all the strength left in me, cover my ears and run as fast as i can, bumping into a few people on my way.

i'm finally out the building.

breathing heavily, i leaned against the wall wiping some excess sweat from my forehead.

i've never been so relieved before.

i'm safe.

i'm okay.

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i suck at describing stuffs ok *inserts crying/laughing emoji*

but here i showed you one of her fears since it's one of the important things on this story:)

and i decide not to make this a short story anymore since i kinda like writing this story so yayy

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j.n xx