At this point, I no longer know what is right or wrong.
It seems like forever since you've been gone.
I still miss you to this day.
I would have given anything for you to stay.
I've done wrong and I've messed up.
At this rate I will never become unstuck.
From all of my lies and wrong doing,
From all the pain that has been ensuing.
The agony feels like a thousand pound stone on my back.
I've carried it so long, I'm about to crack.
I have suffered painfully and slowly,
Because of the things I done that were unholy.
Whether you know it or not, I hurt too.
My pain is caused by the pain I've given you.
I'm doing what I'm doing to maybe subside the pain.
Otherwise I would be insane.
Please forgive me for everything I've done.
Also know that I would give anything under the sun,
The moon, stars and the entire galaxy.
Just for a chance of you being with me.
I hear and see you in everything I do.
I just cant get my mind off of you.
I don't deserve another chance, you and God know why.
But I've prayed a lot to the man in the sky.
I've asked him to help me in my life of sin.
Until he's done, I probably wont see you again.
I know talk is cheap.
But when you my actions speak, My promises I will keep.
But until then I tread deeper into the water.
Ashamed I took advantage of someone's daughter.
I'm now up to my head,
I'm letting go now, I'm dead.
