What it's like to be transgender.

Family/Friends/School

At this moment in time, only one person in my family knows I'm trans. My brother. He accepts me, he doesn't call me Will yet but he said when i come out, he will call me William/Will. And even though I hate him with every once of my existence, that meant the world to me.

(Most) My friends call me Will and I'm very grateful for them. They make me feel like... I don't know how to explain it. It's like when you do a project that was assigned more than a week ago but you decide to do it on the last day but it looks like you used your time wisely. That's the sort of the feeling I guess.

None of my current teachers know I'm trans. There is a teacher I've had in previous school years that I really want to tell her I'm transgender, but we've known each other for about 4 years (I've had her for 3 of those years) and I feel like I trust her enough for her to know that I'm not who I was, I guess, pretending to be. But i don't know. If you guys have any advice, please give it to me.

I also want to tell my counselor, but I don't want to do it now since school ends in a month or so. Maybe next year but I'm not sure.

Anyways, I want to get back to my friends. I became friends with a lot of my friends before I know I was even trans. So it was kind of hard to tell them "Hey, I'm a guy now, can you please call me Will" and blah blah blah. But many of them told me they would try and then they got the hang of it. Some of them got the hang of it some so much that they call me my preferred name in front of my parents/family and I actually had to let them know that "Hey can you please calm me *Birth name* when your with my family." I felt really bad for doing that to them but they understood and did that and I broke my own heart by doing that, but to make sure I have a house over my head, I needed to keep that act up.

I'm rambling and now so I'm going to go. Bye bye.