Happier

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Bucky sat on the corner of the street . Disguised in a hoodie and baseball cap. His fist tightened as he saw you with him again. He watched as he caressed your arm and walked with his hand on the small of your back.

It had been a month since you broke up yet he still couldn't get over the sound of you laughing at another mans jokes. How could you have moved on so fast? He knows he hurt you. He hurt you bad, yet he still gets angry at you being happy with another man.

He loathes the man . He hated his tall posture and perfect smile. He hates how he was the one who could pick up your pieces for you. He watched as you entered the diner. The same diner Bucky had taken you to only last month.

Bucky couldn't stand seeing you two together any longer so he heads back to the tower. He ignores the secretary's greeting as he walks into the elevator. He goes up to Steve's floor which was his for now. After the break up you had kicked him off of your floor so he was staying with Steve until they get a floor ready for him.

"What's up Buck?" Steve says watching his friend enter his living room.

Bucky just looks at him with a look pure disdain. He couldn't bring himself to hold a conversation. He's reverting back to the way he was before you came along. You had helped him figure himself out after Hydra. You were the one who could understand him because of your past. You included him in conversations when others acted like he weren't there. You made him tea when he was sad. The first time you had hugged him was the first time he felt like his old self again. He relished in the feeling of your arms around him.

With you Bucky could be himself. He would discuss his likes and dislikes of modern culture. You introduced the twenty first century to him at a slow pace and never overwhelmed him.

He truly fell for you when you had a bought him a record player and gave him one of his favorite records from when he was young. It was the sound track to his favorite motion picture "Sun Valley Serenade". He would listen to the Chattanooga Choo Choo and recall hints of memories of him and Steve dancing and having fun with each other.

He had cried of happiness and held you close.

"Thank you so much Y/N"Bucky told you hugging you. He was trying to hide his blush of embarrassment as soon as he realized he'd hugged you. He pushed himself off of you and walked away without another word.

Bucky snapped out of his memories when Steve asked what was wrong. Steve was in front of him looking worried.

Bucky pushes him away from him and walks to his room slamming the door shut. He knows none of this is Steve's fault but Bucky was frustrated.

Y/N had been ignoring him all month. Y/N even went to Fury requesting not to be put on a mission with "Agent Barnes". He remembers saying hello to you in the hallway the first time he had seen you since your brake up.

Y/N had said "Barnes"in the most venomous tone he'd ever heard come out of her mouth as she brushed past him. Bucky had looked at you with pure longing as you walked farther and farther away from him.

When Bucky snapped out of his memories he screamed in range throwing the closest thing to him. It was the record of "Sun Valley Serenade" you had gifted him. He watched as the vinyl cracked and shattered out of the pure force of his strength. He fell to the ground holding his head, his fingers pulling at his unkept hair as he screamed. There was no coming back from you he thought to himself.

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Authors note : I'm sorry for grammatical errors my first language is Italian. I hope you like the story sorry it's so angsty (is that the word I'm not sure).