Damians POV .
I wake up to blinding lights , causing me to shut them again almost instantly . I can hear chattering and I recognize a voice , or two. I try to open my eyes once again and sit up . I see all the titans staring . Some looking uneasy . I look down and see I am simply being covered by a pair of boxers . Because of this they can see the self harm cuts , burns , bruises and aggressive bite marks all over my body . Then everything came back to me . About how I started sobbing in training because they knew .
"You passed out "
Dick said calmly .
"Why ?"
I reply.
"You were crying alot and some cuts you made reopened and you lost quite a bit of blood . "
I froze at that comment . 'cuts you made ' . I know it is true but the way he sounded when he said it was so sad . Like it broke him . But why ?
"Damian please never do this to yourself again -"
Raven kneeled down near me and carried on talking .
"I know it won't be easily done but you are strong and if you talk about your feelings instead of cutting , burning , biting and hitting yourself you and everyone else will be so much happier. We all want the best for you and we all know you can do it"
I froze . Why did they care I'm not worth anything . Maybe if I killed myself now , they will be happier and I won't have to feel like this anymore .
That seems like a good idea ..... Yes I'll do that .
"Thank you , I ... I will try . Can I please go to my room ?"
"Alright . "
Dick said with a sigh . I walked to my room and closed the door . Without locking it then I move to the bathroom I locked that door and looked in my special box . Then I saw different choices . A knife , sharpener blades , a Stanley knife blade and finally a pocket knife . I take the Stanley knife blade out and set myself into the bath . It was already half full and I was still in boxers . It didn't matter what I was wearing were I was going anyway . I begin to cut .... Deep . The words
Useless
Worthless
Ugly
Killer
Demon
Spare
Broken
Carved into my skin . I could tell I was drastically losing blood . I was gonna die . Finally . I let a tear drop down my cheeks and a small sad smile escape my lips . My suffering was over , everyones was . Then everything went .... Dark .
