Dreaming of YOU

Bitter sweet Reality

AN:THANK YOU sa nagbabasa at magbabasa nito,hope you'll like it..

Hi! my name is Alzea Fedingfield, proud NBSB( no boyfriend since birth, never been touched,never been fooled...by men of course!) Ive been a solid fan of a boy group named Starish,actually Im their #1 fan,the very first!! Im the one who gave them the name, their like a star...and Ice is one of them..my only star.

Ice has been my friend. the only closest friend I have. We've been together for ages and as we grew-up, my little crush on him deepened and became love.

I witnessed how he strived very hard for his dream, and that is to be a performer on stage,a singer who will be idolized by many..and from the beginning all I did is support him no matter what. So I become their song writer, at first Im also their editor. I edit videos and pictures, post it on social media for them to be known.

As time pass by, people were able to recognize them. Starish were invited to do  talkshows,commercials etc..Everything is history including my feelings, my love for him is still buried down the ground, no one knows about it other than myself..even Ice. And I dont know when would be the right time for that, as long as he's happy and I can see how famous he is, no words can describe how I feel and its priceless.

And here I am, watching Ice perform on stage with millions of fans screaming their name. Im overwhelmed with their fans support and love and I know he is. I can see him closely as I am also in front of the crowd,with steel baricades behind my back,I have the access to be infront with nobody on my sides,holding my camera on my hands,the one Im using in taking pictures and the other on a tripod in front of me for the video. And as promised it will be uploaded on pages I made for the group.

He really sings well, he sings with his heart and I can feel it. No wonder why I felt like flying whenever he's singing.And he is also a goodlooking guy, a man of every womans dreams. He is tall, charismatic, with the body that every girls desire.The man who owns my heart and still not aware of it though he is singing the song of my heart, the one I wrote for him.How convenient it is,right?

I am focusing on taking shots as he went on view,he is looking this way... then he winked at me and smile..wait! "did he really winked at me?". I am shaking my head as I try to get back on my senses when someone bumped me from behind. I fell on my knees,I lost my balance. A fan trying to get closer to Ice. 

I felt a bit dizzy so I closed my eyes for the moment and massage my temple when I heard Ice call my name,the crowd started to scream like crazy and started to shout my name, so I tried to get a view on whats happening on stage. 

He is staring and he looked really worried, I felt numb, I can't move. I felt my heart skips a beat knowing he's looking this way. Is this what it feels like when the person you like finally sees you? or better say finally noticed you?

Im still trying to absorb everything, why did he call my name in front of this people, in front of the media? Is this really happening? All this time, I've been hiding in their shadows ,doing what I should do for the group..for Ice.People are not aware of i.