One wish

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"Camila!? How could you even accuse me of something so stupid ? Who do you think I am!"I shouted. "I thought you trusted me camila" at this stage I was fuming with anger . I began walking up and down the room swearing to myself while camila sat there in silence on the bed .

"Please" camila said, "calm down."

"Calm down ? You are accusing me of taking drugs again don't tell me to calm down" I yelled out punching the wall infront of me , causing camila to get up .

"Why are you acting like this ? I just asked you a question because lately you haven't been your damn self!"

There was an awkward silence neither one of us said a word

"Y/N I found a bag of drugs in your gym bag? Care to explain? Don't you dare lie to me Y/N I'm sick of this shit." At this stage camila was sobbing . Falling to her knees . Seeing camila like this shutters my heart into a million pieces. I knew I had to comfort her and tell her that it was going to be okay . All I wanted to do was hold her and never let go . But I couldn't, I was hurt at Camilas words . I just stood there and yelled back .

"What so you're going through my stuff now.? great " I said in sarcastic tone.

"I was getting your clothes out to was them and they fell out!" she said still on her knees crying . "Why didn't you just tell me Y/N I could have helped you."

I couldn't handle this anymore . I hate asking for help . That's how I am . It's what I do , I like to do things on my own . No matter the situation. I began Walking around camila shouted " of course you walk away ! You always do , when things get hard you runaway. Why can't you just pushing me away and let me in!"

What camila said hit me hard . Yes there were drugs in my bag but I wasn't taking them I was selling them, we needed money. Camila is already taking extra shifts at the café and night shifts at the bar down town at julzbar. I am a part time worker at Kmart. And a mechanic . That's Still not enough money to pay the bills . We've had financial problems

Over the months . I couldn't handle the stress camila was going through so I thought I was doing the right thing by selling the one thing that paid good . Guess not . 2 years ago I had problems with drug dealers that left me in a coma for 2 weeks . I was a complete mess. Camila never left me. She saved me. She was the reason why I left all that behind me. I hated putting my problems on camila. We've been together 3 years now but still to this day I hate allowing anyone in even camila.

"For fuck sake ! did this for you camila". And with that I walked out, grabbing the car keys and headed straight for the car . I got in and drove off . I had no where to go but I didn't care I just needed to go .

Y/N stormed out. I finally made it to my feet and made my way to the bathroom. I felt so sick . As if I was going to throw up . And I was right ,before I knew it was throwing up everywhere . What felt like forever I finally finished. Y/N was all I could think about . We fought here and there but it was rarely this serious and the last time we did Y/N was arrested for getting herself in bar fight. I was worried sick and Y/N took the car so I couldn't go looking for her . I tried calling her but of course no answer . So I left it and went straight to the shower .

I've been driving for about 1 hour until I came to a stop at a gas station. I needed to use the bathroom so I jumped out and went straight for the bathroom . After finishing, I pulled out the bag of drugs . I stood there for about 5 minutes just looking at it , my mind was telling me yes come on do it . But my heart was screaming no don't , think about camila . It's okay you'll get through it . Tears were falling from my eyes . I heard a knock on the door . Taking me out of my thoughts .

"Are you okay in there " a soft male voice said .

"Yeah I'm fine I'll be out in a minute." I answered back.

"Okay" he replied .

I saw at my own reflection in the mirror and I looked like a complete mess . I put the bag of drugs away . I walked straight to my car and headed straight for the bar .

I pulled up into the drive way and stayed there for about 3 minutes. recalling what had Happened 3 hours ago . I wasn't drunk . But I wasn't sober either . I got out of the car and went inside . I made my through the door seeing camila sleeping on the lounge . I stood there admiring her for a while. She looked uncomfortable but she looked she cute at the same time .With an over sized shirt on , shorts on with her hair out . I made my way over to her and slowly picked her up bridal style making sure I don't wake her up . I walked to our room . I looked down at camila . She had her head in my neck . I placed her as gentle as I could on our bed . I tucked her in and whispered

"I'm sorry baby , you don't deserve this , I just thought I was going the right thing . But I promise you I never did it . We needed the money babe I was only trying to help . I'm sorry . I love you princess". Kissing her on her forehead. I got changed and tucked my self in. It was about 3am and I still hadn't fallen asleep . I got out of bed making sure I don't wake up camila . I sat on the lounge and watched tv . Nothing was on besides some old cartoons shows. I guess that'll do I thought to my self . I felt my eyes getting heavy my eye lids were closing and with that I fell asleep with the remote in my hand.