I love zak not you

Zaks dipretion

Two weeks later

Zak's pov

God the last two weeks have been hell with nick in the hospital. First Kirsten gets the stumiec flue, than I had it I felt bad form her because she was cooped up in the house for three days and my three days yes we went back to the house instead of a hotel. When I got better I took her to see nick he was doing fine that he should be out in the next week ugh I hate my life. I have been so upset that I have been crying myself to sleep. One I didn't hear Kirsten come in to the room till

K-" Papa I had a bad dream."

It scared me when she said the I looked at her and picked her up

Z-" about what sweetie?"

K-" about you have a dipretion. what is that papa?"

I thought how do I tell her about that

Z-" well it is umm were someone is always sad and just want to hide from everyone that love them. And they hurt them selfs or try to kill them self."

Kirsten's pov

What papa just told me got me to think what if papa did have it. he always hides in his office and the only time we leave is to see daddy. I started to cry because I don't want papa to kill himself I ran to my room and grabbed the teddy bear papa got me the second day I was here. I cried in to the bear and said

K-" I don't want papa to kill himself. I love him to much why dose he have to be sooooo sad please lord help my papa please please please"

I was crying and say those words I didn't hear papa come into my room till he pick me up and said

Z-" angle I won't hurt myself why would you think that yes I have been sad but I won't hurt myself I won't EVER hurt myself okay sweetie I love you."

K-" can you go to the doctor and see if you have it please I don't want to loose you papa. we almost lost daddy please."

Zak's pov

Kirsten was crying in to my shirt she want me to go to the doctor to see if I have dretion

Z- " I will go sweetie I promise."

K-" Papa can I sleep with you please I am scared."

I than remember her saying she had a bad dream

Z-" sweetie you can sleep with me but what all happen in your dream?"

K-" I was in kindergarten. I came home daddy's car was gone but your was home so I came in to see you but you........"

She grabbed my shirt and cried even harder

Z-" shhhh it's okay papas got you. everything will be okay."

I try to tell her but she

K-" papa you were hanging from the railing with a rope around your neck I scream than daddy walked in and saw what i saw and started to cry and told me to untie it that he might be able to save you. I was to scared but I did what he said but it was to late you died . daddy told the officer that you had dipretion and maybe that is why you hung yourself. please papa don't hurt your self please don't die I need you and daddy."

When she was done my heart broke I looked at her I didn't know what to say I just sat there holding my baby girl.

Z-" papa will go in but let's go to bed okay I will still be here in the morning."

The next morning

Kirsten's pov

I was up before papa so I went to the kitchen and got two bowls down for me and papa then I got the serial, milk I found a tray and took it up to papa

K-" papa I got breakfast for us get up please"

He rolled over and open his eyes and smiled and shook his head and laughed. I thought what's so funny

K-" what so funny papa?"

Z-" I am the papa I should bring you food but you brote me food I just think it is supper cute that's all baby."

We ate then went to see daddy and papa went to talk to a doctor to see if they can help him with his saddens papa came back to daddy's room

K-" papa what wrong."

Z-" remember what we talked about last night."

K-" ya"

Z-" papa has deprtion sweetie."

Daddy looked at papa and said

N-" why did you talk about that."

K-" I had a very bad dream papa hung himself in it because he had deprtion you tried to save him and that's what told the cop."

N-" oo okay I have good new to this um bad news I get out tomorrow."

I smiled and so did papa.