Eyes that Never Lie

Eyes that never lies [one shot]

I’m too innocent in this field, I didn’t know when did it start and how it ends. He’s just a guy who turn me into someone new, the pure heart of mine is now shred into thousand pieces because of one guy who promised a lot of things. He promised that he will accept me, the real me, he also promised that he is going to love me, and he will never leave me. But in the end, I’m sure that promises are really meant to be broken.

It’s been years since he left me, I don’t know what he’s been into or what life he had right now. All I know is that I’ve change, I learn so many things since he left me with a deep scar.  I don’t care at all to the people around me, people called me ice because of my expressionless face that I’ve given to them, the attitude I have, the mood swings and how I treat other people. In short I turn into something bad person, and no one stop me from becoming like this.

I need to be hospitalized for months because my parents and I observed that I always getting fever, my weight is dropping rapidly without even trying to exercise just I turn to slim. I’m so happy about losing weight but when we know the reason is, the smile in my face fade away.

“Doc, please? Do everything you can. She can survive right? We will pay you a big amount of money! Just please! Save my daughter!”

I can feel the pain in my chest as I watching my mom begging to the doctor for me to live longer. And right of this moment, I just accept the fact that I’m going to die soon.  

“Madam, we will do everything we can. Leukaemia is one of the most common childhood cancers, it can also be fatal. But there are ways of treating and controlling the disease and its symptoms”

I close my eyes and took a deep sigh, I don’t want to listen anymore about what is going to happen to me. I hold my mother’s arm and give her my best smile for her to ease the pain she has.

“I want to go home”

She was shocked as I said that, I don’t want to see my mom crying in front of me because I am dying. So what if I’m dying? I’m the only one who’s going to leave and not them.

Dinner time and I’m the only one who’s doing the talking, my mother, father, Mark and Anthony were all silent.

“Mom, you remember when I was young? You always telling me that Mark and Anthony used to wear a dress because you want to have a daughter right? Hahaha I remember the photo when both of you were so mad at mom because she made you to wear those. “

The room filled with my laugh, but to them no one dares to laugh. I look at my mom, and she just give me a weak smile. My dad was just continue on eating while Mark was doing something on the phone and Anthony was looking at me, like I’m so pitiful right of this moment.

Okay, I can’t take this anymore.

“Are you the one who’s dying?”

I said in a cold tone, I don’t like what is happening right now. All of them were so gloomy! As if I’m going to die tomorrow. What’s wrong with this people?

All of them stared at me, and I look at each one of them.

“What’s with that face? Are you the one who’s going to die? Tell me? Why you acting like I’m dead?!” because of anger I didn’t expect to raise my voice.

“Alexandra…”

I saw tears from my mom’s eyes, and I know she’s keeping it all the time.

“So what if I’m going to die? Do you think you’re the only ones need to go through? Do you think this is not hard for me?”

My tears falls down as I was saying those words to them, all of them were speechless like I’m talking in the air. I don’t want to see them like this. I stood up and start to run away from our mansion, my family has a lot of money but those money can’t save me. I know that, the fact why they are like that? I know my dad is thinking that his money can’t save me, and I’ve heard that he is regretting on getting this position we had.