A New Beginning GerIta {Fluff} (Book 3)

Chapter 21 The Monster I am

*Germany's POV*

I looked at Feliciano after a few minutes and said, "I need you to get dressed." I then went to the kitchen, looking for a weapon. If only I'd brought my gun then I'd be able to just shoot them and have it be done with. I sighed, I didn't think there would be a need for a gun on my honeymoon. I grabbed a kitchen knife and slid it in my belt loop. I looked over to Feliciano he was shakily and very slowly getting dressed. I hated to rush him, but he needed to move faster. I run up to him and say "I'm sorry Feli, you need to move faster. I understand you are in bad shape, but time is of the essence and I'm not sure how much we have." I told him and helped him dress, gently and as quickly as I could. 

Feliciano looked at me, his eyes filled with tears, he must be so humiliated. I haven't seen him this upset in a long time. I sigh and wipe his tears with the pad of my thumb. "Luddy.." He finally spoke, "I'm sorry." I hated that the words out of his mouth were an apology to me. 

"Feliciano, I don't want you to apologize to me. None of this is your fault." I tell him softly and run my fingers through my hair stressed. The door begins to shake, my eyes widen. I look to Feliciano he looks back a scared expression on his face.

*Maria's POV*

I send a message to Anthony, something is giving me a bad feeling. What, I'm not sure. "Anthony, go check the room." Then I lock my phone, and lay back down in the bed. I wasn't going to deal with whatever it was. I needed someone to check on it who didn't have work at eight in the morning. As far as I know, Anthony is just a guest on the cruise ship. I sigh and close my eyes, I'll give it my own check in the morning. 

*Anthony's POV*

I look at my phone, a drink in my hand. When a message from Maria pops up. I look at it and sigh, she wants me to check the room. I sigh and pay for my drink. I stand up wink at the ladies I had been socializing with. Then make my way towards the room where our, prisoners are. 

I walk down the hallway towards the door, now that I think about it something does feel off. I just don't understand why Maria can't check on it. Then again, she is still pretty pissed with me for fucking up the plan. I shrug my shoulders, that doesn't matter. I got to have my fun with pretty boy. Too bad the German wasn't awake to hear his little husband cry and beg and fight me off. I shrug, oh well. This will probably give me another chance for it. I whistle as I walk, holding the door key, nodding to the people as I walk by.

I put the card key in and open the door, I walk in a look to where they had been tied up. "Fuck! Where did they go?!" Maria was going to lose it if she found out I lost them, how the fuck did they get out was the better question. I paced around the room thinking of places they could've gone on the ship. They must've made their escape while we were gone, obviously. 

As I walked by the closet, the back of my hair was grabbed. Fuck I thought to myself, I said softly maybe to make peace with the German man. It couldn't be the Italian, the hand isn't dainty enough. "Hey, okay. Let's take this nice and easy." I said keeping my arms at my side. 

I looked down for a second, and under the bed I saw the glint of brown eyes. The Italian is under the bed. Then all in one second, that seemed to go in slow motion I went from standing by the closet to being slammed into the refrigerator. I heard the Italian man squeak a quiet squeak of fear. 

*Germany's POV*

Nice and easy? I thought and then as soon as I saw he had found Feliciano's hiding place, I had all in one movement picked him up by his hair and slammed him into the refrigerator. I saw the blood smear on the fridge, I had to say it pleased me. Then I made him face me, I heard him squeak when he looked into my eyes. Which I know are filled with rage, I found myself speaking to him, the words like venom dripping from my tongue. "Nice and easy?" I spat at him, "You are in no position to be telling me what to do." 

"I'll let you go.." He cried out, the blood dripping from his nose from where it had been smashed into the fridge. 

"I think it's too late to be just letting us go. I can't just let you walk away after what you did to my husband." I snarled, my vision turned red as I remember each little bruise on his body. How he hasn't stopped crying, how he looks at me like I'm going to send him away any minute now. I begin to tremble with pure rage. "How dare you rape him! How dare you tell him that I won't love him!" I didn't even realize I was hitting him until my fist came back bloody and blood spattered on my face. I heard the crying from under the bed, but I couldn't stop. I didn't want to stop. I  slammed him on the floor and then I kicked him as hard as I could. "You think you are a big man for forcing yourself on him? Where are your man balls now bitch?" 

He coughed and spit blood, he didn't say a word, I didn't think he would be able to. Even if he had anything smart to say to me. I pulled the knife from my belt loop and squatted down on the floor next to him. I then whispered "You should've left us alone." Then I slit his jugular, normally I wouldn't have done that. I had lost myself, I had given into the rage I felt. That's when I snapped out of it, I heard Feliciano crying under the bed. "Oh no.." I whispered to myself and looked at what I had done. Seeing how much blood there was, I hadn't been around that much blood since.. Well, since World War II. Well, I hadn't personally been the cause personally of this much blood since then. 

I dropped the knife and walked over to Feli, I dropped to my knees as I spoke to him. He seemed to crawl further under the bed. "I'm so sorry." I whispered "I didn't mean too." I told him. My voice soft and weak, I had never wanted him to look at me like that again. Now I had given him cause to. "I'm not going to hurt you Feli.." I told him gently as I looked at him. 

"You killed him Ludwig.." He whispered in shock, his eyes wide and his little body trembling. He didn't need to be afraid of me. I can't believe I let the monster come out and see daylight again. 

"I'm sorry, I lost control. I just knew what he did to you. The marks he left on you. What he told you... I didn't mean to, I didn't mean to go that far." I told him and now I'm the one crying, I felt my body tremble and tears roll down my cheeks. I cover my face with my blood stained hands. I thought this is it.. This is how he is going to leave me... Because I really am a monster. "I'm sorry, I'm a monster." 

After a moment I felt two slender arms wrap themselves around me. He then spoke softly to me. "You aren't a monster Luddy." He assured me, pulling me to his chest. This is all so backwards. I should be holding and comforting him. Instead he is comforting me, as I sob into my bloody hands, the smell of the copper is nauseating. "Don't ever say that." He whispered to me just holding me in his arms. He is an angel, I have to be a monster.