Dear Mommy

5 Years

Mommy, 

can you hear me?

are you proud of me?

I'm dating him.

5 years it's been.

I'm turning 15 on Sunday.

Do you miss me like I miss you?

You weren't there for my first heartbreak..

You weren't there when I tried to kill myself..

You weren't there to help me get over a breakup..

It pains me knowing you aren't going to be there when I get married, to help me get on my dress, or to help me pick out the dress. 

I love him Mom, and I know you would too.

I want to be in your arms again. To kiss you. Tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you.

When you died, part of me died too. 

You saved me from foster care, and I couldn't save you from your heart attack. 

I miss you Mommy.

Love your daughter.

left to right- My brother, Mom--, Dad, and me.

(I was like 8)