Asia
We began eating our food and I looked at Ella. She looked pretty stressed out and I was curious as to why.
"You good?" I asked her.
She nodded.
"Yeah just thinking."
"Thinking about?"
"Well I went to moms house and we talked about what's been going on with Larry and I." She said looking uneasy.
"What she say?!"
I was curious as hell to know what my mother said.
"She said Larry's my husband and I should give him another chance." She said as she took another bite of her steak and cheese sandwich.
I sighed.
Its not that I didnt like Larry. Its just I personally thought Jah was better for Ella.
"Fuck what mom thinks what do you want to do? Who do you want to be with Ella? And as much as I love mom but that advice was dumb as fuck." I said kinda aggravated with my mom she always said some stupid shit.
"I don't know how I feel Asia *pause* Larry did what he did but I do love him and I mean were married." She said making me face palm.
"This is what I was trying to avoid! Sis Jahseh has feelings too and you kissing him and having sex with him is making him think your feeling the same! Its not right."
She knew I was right.
"you need to stop feeling bad for Larry he didn't feel bad for you when he was out fucking other girls and Cindy being one of them!" I also said as she sat there eating.
"This situation is complicated but I think I know what I'm gonna do." She said as she took a sip from her water.
"Witch is?"
"I guess I'm gonna try and work things out with Larry, he has some vacation planned but if things go wrong and he doesn't change I'm done."
"Sis Jahseh isn't gonna wait for you forever! He doesn't deserve this Ella!! And you know damn well Jah gives no fucks will show up unannounced and hell will break lose!! His feelings for you are real!"
"And my feelings for him are real! I'm just confused witch Is something everyone fails to realize!
She got up and walked out...
I understand she was angry at what I said but someone had to say the truth.
I loved Ella
But I love Jahseh as well just like her feelings matter to me so do his.
Stokeley
Jahseh and I finished our studio time and I honestly couldn't stop thinking about what Larry was telling me.
"Vro Larry knows."
"He knows what?" He raised his eyebrow.
"About you and Ella I don't know how he found out but I went to visit him and he asked me if I knew anything." I said scratching my head I didnt wanna cause any type of problems but Jahseh was my best friend.
"Good I'm happy his bitch ass knows that I made love to his wife. Maybe Ella wouldn't have came to me if he was actually loving her the right way and doing what he has to do for her!" He says while lighting up a cigarette.
"is it love that she has for you? Or was it cause she wanted revenge on Larry?" I asked as I raised my eyebrow.
I had alot of love for Ella that was my sister and also one of my best friends but I see Jahseh getting hurt again.
I didnt wanna see my nigga get all fucking hurt over a female He's already been depressed over her.
He looked down and sighed cause he knew what I was saying was the truth.
"It looks like that but I know she loves me." He says.
"Okay but is she IN love with you? There's a big difference between loving someone and being IN love with someone."
He stood shut.
"Being in love takes time for sure but I just don't wanna give up on her. I love her stokeley that woman got my heart."
He sighed.
Whenever you give someone your heart you giving them the opportunity to either break your heart or just play with it like its a toy.
Most of the time people aren't greatful for what they have right in front of them. Only because they don't want to let the passed go and I think thats what might be happening.
"I wanna marry her I wanna make her happy. I'll do whatever it takes even if at the end it breaks my heart."
"I just don't wanna see you hurt!"
He nodded.
At that moment Asia walked in sigh the food.
"Where's Ella?" Jah asked her.
From the look on my fiances face I already had a clue as to what happened.
"Jahseh I told you not to fall for her again." She said avoiding eye contact with him.
"What are you trying to say Asia please just get to the point! Tell me what happened and why she didnt come back with you!" He said with a shaky voice.
"Basically she was indecisive about this whole thing so she went to my mom and my mom gave her the advice to give Larry another chance."
He just nodded and walked out the room.
"So basically the nigga cheats on her with her own cousin and she decides to stay with him."
"Yeah but maybe its the hormones and all that babe."
I sighed.
"I'll be back knowing how Jah is He's either breaking some shit or getting in the car to go to her house and thats just gonna hurt him more."
I walked back upstairs and I seen him outside with tears rolling down his eyes.
How come the same person who broke your heart is the same person who can fix it? we push the ones who love us away and love the ones who don't.
I'll never understand.
I walked out and sat next to him.
"Vro this is just gonna kill you more and more inside just let her go!"
"I can't do that stokeley I love her, I'm in love with her."
