"Gguk, I had no idea, listen the only reason why I was always so touchy about is because well.... I was bullied when I was younger and I wanted to prove them all wrong." he knew he was lying but he still was too scared to come out.
"Oh Joon, if you would have told me, I would have stopped asking." now Joon felt extremely guilty, he was lying to his close friend again and if he was honest, he was lying to himself. He still wouldn't even admit to himself that he was gay; when in reality the thought of touching a woman made him feel sick. Whenever he would bring a girl over to trick Jeongguk he would tell her to be quiet and then play porn to make it seem like they were together. Really they would be across the room from each other on their phones.
"Yeah I should have." Joonie began to internally scold himself.
"Oh would you look at the time, I've got to go, drop me a text later yeah?"
Namjoon knew he shouldn't give in this easily, he knew one day he'd die on accident but right now that didn't matter. He needed release. He barely heard the others say 'ok' before he rushed out of the apartment and down the stairs, not wanting to stop for anything. He rushed to the car fumbling with his keys.
Traffic was bad and he grew more frustrated with every passing minute. He was in his car, stuck in a jam, crying hysterically and being completely frustrated. He resorted to smashing his fists and open palms on his steering wheel and screaming, screaming and he continued to do so until his lungs gave out.
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Little White Lies | Jikook & Namjin
RomanceA story full of lies, secrecy and fear. Will hearts be broken? Will their friendships stay afloat after certain treasures are uncovered? Will roommates ever be able to look at each other the same way again? How will family back home react to the new...
