His embrace threw his presence.

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You are the torch light brightest in my black hole of a life when I am with you. But what am I to you? I love you, but effort is not seen anymore, you are busy, and I understand that. But you swore you'd try and text me when ever you had even a second after I almost walked out. You said things would change, and I thought you meant it. But now I am breaking more and more and wish you'd feel my pain for even a second. Your heart would stop beating and you'd become the zombie I am. Your heart is all I desire, but the loneliness with out you is making me think about running away from everyone. Liquor in a bottle oh take me to the parks bridge. I shall send you one last video saying I love you and that the pain was to much. Oh how I will run and die all for the loneliness. You are the only constituency I have in my life, now I am more broken than I was before due to indecisive feelings that won't come to a conclusion. But you will be the death of me, for showing love to me was your mistake. Because loving a lonely soul requires effort. Suicide sounds so sweet,  liquor oh how it rains so bitter sweet, drip your numbness on me so that I won't feel a thing when I jump off the bridge and hit the ground. Soon oh soon my lovely fate is conning. To the void I go never to be seen again, never to be kissed, hugged, next to, or even hear my voice again. I am dying from the pain, and it is almost my time to end all of the suffering.