The Arrangement

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

After confronting the croweater, Happy kisses me softly and I say "I'm gonna head back home. I just want to lay down." I tell him. "I'll take you." he tells me and I nod. We get home and walk in the door and I head straight to the bathroom and lock the door. I run a bath and get in the tub. Lying there, I rub my stomach and all I can hear his her calling me a cow. I feel the tears fall and I sob into my hands. When the water gets cold, I get out and get dressed before walking out and into the bedroom. Happy is sitting on the bed waiting on me. "Come here." he says and I walk closer but not close enough for him to touch me. I have my robe on and have it pulled tightly around me, not wanting him to see me. "Please." he says. I take a couple of steps closer and he grabs my hand and pulls me to him to stand between his knees. He looks up at me and says "Talk to me." I shake my head. "I'm okay. I just want to go to sleep." I tell him. "How long have we known each other?" He asks. "Almost fifteen years." I tell him. "So you know I can tell what's going on in your head." he tells me and I nod. "You are fucking perfect baby." He says. I back away from him and say "Don't. Happy, I think we need to step away for awhile. I won't keep you from the baby but we need to step away." I tell him, trying to keep the tears from falling. "No you don't. You realize, together or not, I'm with you. I don't want anyone else so stop talking all this bullshit about stepping away. You're my wife." he says. "Yeah and it's just an arrangement." I tell him. "No it ain't and you know it. This was never just an arrangement. We've been together since you were eighteen. Almost ten years we've been together. I ain't going anywhere and neither are you. Now, come here and lay down with me." he tells me. I walk to the bed and lay down on my side with my back to him as the tears start to fall. He lays down behind me and pulls me to him and rubs my stomach, feeling our daughter kick his hand.

The next morning, I'm still lying there awake with Happy still wrapped around me. "Morning babe." he whispers. "Morning." I say simply. He rolls me over to my back and asks "You feeling better?" I shake my head. I won't lie to him. "What do you need baby?" he asks. "Just don't leave me. Please." I say as the tears start to fall again. He pulls me closer and says "I'm not going anywhere baby. I promise. You're it for me." he tells me as I sob into his chest. He just rubs my back and tells me how much he loves me. When we finally get up, he gets his phone and calls to let the guys know he's staying home with me for the day.

I walk out to the deck and sit on the steps. A few minutes later, Happy walks out and sits beside me. He doesn't say anything, just sits with me. "I know you love me but are you happy with me? Are you still attracted to me?" I ask. "Of course. Where is this coming from?" he asks. "I just keep hearing that croweater in my head saying that I'm a cow." I tell him. "Baby, look at me please." He says and I look up at him. "You are beautiful, sexy and I have never been happier in my life. I still don't know how it took us so long to realize we were already together. You're the only one that I have ever loved or wanted and now you're giving me a little girl. Our little girl. You are so fucking amazing. I love you little girl. Nothing will ever change that." he tells me as more tears start to fall. "I'm sorry Happy." I say. "Baby, don't be. But no matter what, I will never cheat on you. You and our little girl are all I will ever need." he tells me. I lean forward and kiss him softly. He deepens the kiss before pulling me to stand. Breaking the kiss, he leads me inside and to the bedroom where he lays me on the bed and shows me just how much he wants me.

After finding our release, I fall asleep against him. Waking up a little later, he's gone. I get up and look around the house and find him in the nursery, painting a mural on the wall. It's of crows in flight surrounding the crib and her name above the crib. There's one crow for each member at the Redwood table. "Happy. This is amazing." I tell him, shocked. "I was hoping you'd like it." he tells me as he walks over and pulls me close. "Are you feeling better?" he asks. "Yeah. Thank you." I tell him. "Don't ever doubt how I feel about you baby. Ten years together and you are still the only one I want." he tells me. I kiss him softly and say "I'll start dinner." He shakes his head and says "Let's order in." before leading me to the couch and pulling me close.