summary: you can't sleep and jisung just friend-zoned you
pairing: jisung (skz) × you
genre: angst (?)
note: my first imagine! i'm sorry for some grammatical errors and such. im too lazy to edit it HAHAHA this is so laaaamee
s l e e p l e s s
"why aren't you sleeping?" jisung, your best friend slash dorm mate asked.
it was 1 in the morning, and here you are, tossing yourself around your bed. the voice from the door startled you, and sighed after realizing that it was just your best friend, jisung.
"'cause i can't. simple." it was now jisung's turn to sigh. he was tired of seeing you can't sleep for over a week.
this week you really can't sleep. even with comfy mattress and comfy pillows plus some stuffed toys (which were jisung's, by the way) can't make you sleep.
you took a better look at jisung. there he is, standing by the door frame, with a disappointed look on his face. he has a massive bed hair, and he looks like he just woke up. you averted your gaze to his right hand, which is holding a glass of milk.
"oh how thoughtful of you, sungie." you sweetly said, sitting up. jisung rolled his eyes as he went to your side.
you grabbed the glass from his hands, muttering a soft 'thank you'. your heart fluttered whenever jisung would comeover to your bedroom with a glass of milk on his hands knowing that you can't sleep again.
"am i a burden?" you suddenly blurted out. jisung choked on his saliva before looking at you with an unbelievable expression on his face.
you realized that almost everynight, jisung would wake up from his well-deserved sleep and make you a glass of milk. he would wake up to the noise your bed is making due to your movements (curse the thin wall).
"are you being dramatic or what?"
"it's just that i've been bothering you for the past few days. you don't have to do this every single night. You can just leave me alone—"
"yep, you're right." his sentence broke your heart, but you managed to mask your pained expression. you were about to say something when he layed down in your bed and pulled you along with him.
"yah, what are you doing?" jisung shushed you and started stroking your hair. you already forgot about the glass of milk.
you two stayed in that position for a few minutes. you felt safe, with your head above his chest, and his arms around you. hearing his steady heartbeat made you feel at ease, it's like lurring you into sleep. you look like a couple, but sadly, you two are just friends. best friends.
jisung decided to break the silence. "you know that i could just leave you alone, right? you know that you are a burden yourself, right?"
his words were sharp, and it stabbed you. "Yah, no need to rub it on my fa—"
"but i just can't do that to the one i love, duh." your heart fluttered. he finally loves you back?
"you're my one and only best friend, y'know." jisung added, breaking your heart. you sat up, not wanting to hear more of what he's going to say that would probably break your heart again. how many times you were friend-zoned by this guy.
you could say he was startled by your actions. "jisung, can you leave?" you asked, tears welling up in your eyes.
"y/n—"
"please?" you finally looked at him, making him see how hurt you are.
"i love you, jisung! more than friends, more than best friends! stop breaking my heart, stop playing with my feelings. please. it's already too much." your tears fell. jisung looked at you in pity.
"y/n, i'm sorry..." he tried hugging you ,but you pushed him away. you kept crying, pushing him to the door.
he sighed, standing up, and making his way to the door. he looked at you one last time, taking in your situation that broke his heart.
'i should say this to her already', he thought.
"y/n, just let me tell you something." you looked up to him, and weakly nodded, preparing yourself to hear the most painful words.
"i'm sorry for everything. i'm sorry for making you cry. i'm sorry for playing with your feelings. i'm sorry for not loving you. i'm really sorry, i really am." he said and left.
as he left, you broke down in tears, punching your heart due to the pain that you are experiencing right now.
at the other side of the door, jisung slid down the door with his hands on his face, regretting everything that he has said to you just now. he just lied, but he had to.
