Sad Shit

You see,

You cling to me

But you ain't really there for me

You're afraid of losing me

But you don't really care for me

Through this music is how I deal with my emotions

It's like therapy

No one really knows how much this depression tears at me

But I don't ever let anyone in

So the only one I got to blame for how I'm feeling is me

It took months to create me

And just seconds for you to destroy me

Now I don't think anyone could ever repair me

Even if they could,  I wouldn't be the same

The second you left

My life forever changed

I won't ever get you off my mind

Your memory is forever imprinted in my brain

I'm surrounded by people who love me

But if that love ain't from you then I just feel lonely

“It gets better”

Is what they told me

But what they don't know is

I've always been in a state of depression

You got me out it

Now I'm back in this misery

How can you do this to me

I thought you loved me

I thought we were meant to be

I guess I was mistaken

They say the people in your life could either be a lesson or blessing

Well you were both wrapped into one

But you left me heartbroken

Now it's hard to trust

Now I don't open up

Until I pick back up that pen and notebook

Then spill my guts

I would've said my heart but you got that

And honestly girl, you can keep it

Because if I don't got you then I don't need it

And I apologise for all the sad shit

But I just had to get this off my chest

I don't know what's left

for me to say

But I wish you the best even though knowing you're happy him leaves me in constant pain

I'll just let the regret

of letting you go fill this whole in my chest

It's crazy how you make me happy

And at the same time so depressed