He picked me up from school today.
Wished he just declined his own offer.
Before it was laughter soon as i reached the handle.
Now i wish the earth would swallow me to prevent me for opening the door.
It was where are we headed today my love?
Now the silence hurts.
"Thank you" was all i said
"No problem" was all his repsond.
Silence. I hate my self. I had to fall. I have reached the concrete floor, ha i should be laughing, i chose this.
I hold my tears in on the car ride. I feel a sting on my tight, he has thrown the aux cable at me. Before we would be singing on top of our lungs. Now i wished he could drive faster.
We get home. Always would rush to hug. I rush into the house.
He says hi to my parents, at least he got the manners now.
I even go wash dishes to just prevent to breath the same air as him. I let the tears come down. I put water to boil, to make instant noddles.
"Do you need help" my ones loving voice asked, now it just breaks me.
Silence.
I am alone now in the kitchen.
I don't think he has noticed that his ring is off from me.
I can breath. I hate who i am. To be such open to someone. I am strong?
I wouldn't get mad if the future me said i was going with many guys.
I would be proud, i am not going to get hurt again, good cause i hate this pain.
I would like to tell him why? But i have no strength to go on.
