He picked me up from school today.
Wished he just declined his own offer.
Before it was laughter soon as i reached the handle.Now i wish the earth would swallow me to prevent me for opening the door.
It was where are we headed today my love?
Now the silence hurts.
"Thank you" was all i said
"No problem" was all his repsond.
Silence. I hate my self. I had to fall. I have reached the concrete floor, ha i should be laughing, i chose this.
I hold my tears in on the car ride. I feel a sting on my tight, he has thrown the aux cable at me. Before we would be singing on top of our lungs. Now i wished he could drive faster.
We get home. Always would rush to hug. I rush into the house.
He says hi to my parents, at least he got the manners now.I even go wash dishes to just prevent to breath the same air as him. I let the tears come down. I put water to boil, to make instant noddles.
"Do you need help" my ones loving voice asked, now it just breaks me.
Silence.
I am alone now in the kitchen.
I don't think he has noticed that his ring is off from me.
I can breath. I hate who i am. To be such open to someone. I am strong?
I wouldn't get mad if the future me said i was going with many guys.
I would be proud, i am not going to get hurt again, good cause i hate this pain.
I would like to tell him why? But i have no strength to go on.