Damaged beyond repair

more than a thought

She couldnt get the thought of this out of her head. What had she done wrong? Why did this happen? Did it even happen? As time went on she felt all she could do was to accept it as is was and learn to live with it. She couldnt tell anyone otherwise she would get into trouble or no one would believe her. A year passed and things were better, she met some one. An old school flame who she had always been crazy about. they talked a while then she went back to her aunts. Asleep on the couch she felt a person climb under the covers on the other end. Thinking it was just her cousin she went back to sleep until she felt a hand rubbing on her leg. Startled she looks and its her aunts boyfriend!! "what are you doing?" she asked. He said "its ok, there is nothing wrong with this and its ok" slowly rubbing her leg and making his way to her vagina, she felt hot and a feeling of euphoria came over her whole body and she liked it! She never felt this before and she wanted more! he crawled on top of her from under the covers still with a finger inside. She whispered no, this wrong. he kissed her and said i told you its ok while at that moment entering her. She yelled out and he covered her mouth. Slowly moving in and out and with each stroke she felt herself become more and more interested in it. The whole thing didnt last long and immediately after she felt shame and guilt. Blaming this on her self she left. He followed her asking why are you leaving? She screamed "Do you know what we just did!?" "we just made complete fools of ourselves and i absolutley betrayed my aunt!" She walked and walked until she was in town. Feeling guilty still stayed with her, "what is wrong with me?" Soon she was at a store and wouldnt you know who was there, the old school boyfriend. Clearly seeing she was upset he invited her to join him. "whats wrong?" he asked. Embarassed, she told him she just broke up with her boyfriend and was just upset. They went to his home and to her disgust they had sex. Knowing not even three hours prior she was with someone else. But she wanted this she wanted that out of body experience and thats exactly what she got. Sweaty, legs shaking, eyes rolling. She had it all. they soon became a couple. She loved him and he loved her and they were the envy of the town. He was a well known drug dealer every girl wanted and she was the pretty girl no one could get. Only three weeks later she finds out shes pregnant and her parents kick her out so she moves in with him. Everything seemed to be going great until one day she realized he was cheating. She packed up and left and it didnt take him long to find her, begging for forgiveness and understanding! Stupidly she went with him. months passed and it was time to have the baby! they were both excited rushing in and pushing and hearing the cry of a baby was everything. Until it wasnt. the baby wasnt mixed, the baby was white and at that moment her whole life changed. It was her aunts boyfriends baby...