What Lies Lies Inside

Entry 2

Dear Diary,

"Happiness is a state of mind," I read while scrolling through Facebook.

If only it was that easy...

I tried today. I tried to go to graduation and make the most of it, and while I was there I felt nothing. I tried to feel excited. "Hey, I'm graduating!" I would cheerfully tell myself. But, it didn't work, I still felt nothing.

I've worked hard all 4 years. Now I got to where I wanted to be 4 years ago and I feel nothing. I'm ranked 3rd in my class. I'm my high school's National Honor Society President. I did not feel a damn thing.

I wish I could say I finally see the fruits of all my labor, but I don't even know what I was working so hard for.

I graduated.

But, I think I lost the girl I always was in the process.

I forgot who she is and what she wanted.

She walked that stage with a smile and typed this diary as she lie in bed with tears in her eyes.

How do I find her again?

Tell me, how?

So that when I do, I'll hug her tight and tell her she did a good job. Maybe that was all she needed to stay.

Sincerely,

Sapphire