RANDOM THOUGHTS I HAVE

vent poems

would it be wrong if i couldn't get the job done
i couldn't do it
im sorry that im weak
it's not my fault it's yours
it's not me its you
im not your bitch
you don't own me and you never will
is it like a tree getting new branches, or is it's old branches dying ?
what character am i playing
i can't get in character
i can only do what i think is right
i have no directions. no map. im lost.
where am i ? hell or heaven ?
everyones scared of me
which would be nice if i didn't really mean "everyone"
including myself
everyone leaves me because im too much work
so i block them out like a mirror turned around
my pedals are falling off
im slowly breaking down
im going to snap
it's over
and i don't want to care, but im scared
too late

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how could i love a monster ?
i didn't mean to fall in love.
it's like he just latched on and coursed through my veins, becoming part of me.
i can't let go, i won't let go.
im falling.
falling.
falling.
faster and deeper into the hole that is love.

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i hate people.
they hate me.
we go hand in hand, it's quite simple.
if someone doesn't want me around. i don't want them around.
someone doesn't wanna see me. i don't want to see them.
but sometimes a flip switches in me.
i want to see them. they don't want to see me.
i want them around. they don't want me around.
the system has been tampered.
error.
error.
that's when i get angry.
that's when i go overboard.
THATS WHY PEOPLE HATE ME.

what will happen when i get too angry ?

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yeet time to play in traffic