Mason POV
since that incident i hardly sleep. When i do, i always woke up in the middle of the night covered in sweats. Tonight i didn't sleep at all. The last time i slept, i had a very horrible nightmare that i can't bear to even closed my eyes.
[I was walking home from school, and like usual Mia went home before me. As i took every step, i feel weird, it was as if i have been here. I look to my surrounding, a lady with red skirt is walking out of a store, a bunch of kids talking and laughing among each other. I was busy observing my surrounding that i didnt realise i stopped walking. My heart felt heavy as i feel the deja vu again. I shook the thought away and walk faster. As i arrived at the front door i could smell something good from inside. i open the door gentle and reveal my lovely sister mia. she greeted me and dragged me to the dinner room, i see a pan full of ramen with crab meat. "wow"i said excitedly "wow indeed, i see you have come home Mase" said my father as he come to pat shoulder and go went behind my mother who facing to the left side of the kitchen. Mia also went to stand behind my dad, so they were standing in a row.
my mom turn towards me with her hand holding a knife. her expresion was blank and so lifeless. "why you come late mase?, we were waiting for you. i told you to come home straight from home." she bring her knife closer to her face "i am disappointed of you." as she said thoes words, she stab her troat with her knife. i was too shell shocked to realise that she already fell to the floor. i panicked and ran towards mom "mom no!!" i shout while i take her to my arm. i can see my father leanning down "dad what shou-" i see my father take the knife out of moms throat, i was confused "where were you when your family need you" as he stabbed the knife towards his chest. as soon as he did that, he fell to the floor.
I jump out of fear and freeze as i look towards mia. then again she took the knife from my dad chest. she was abaout to stab herself like mom and dad but she look at me with a scared eyes. "mase.... i'm scared" she said but i was to stunned to replay. i saw her eyes changed and her face whent to blank. "you should have been here mase!'' she shout as she was about to stab herself but i immedietly went to stop her. i put my hand to cover her throat but the knife just past through my hand. as she fell down i was just standing there froze, "what..?" i said as my whole body start to tremble and i felt nausea before i could do anything they all stood up with blood all over they bodys.
i step back when they walk towards me "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT MASON!" they shout at me and repeat "IS ALL YOUR FAULT! IS ALL YOUR FAULT! IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" they keep repeating as it gets louder and louder and louder. i fell down to my knees and covered my ears as i closed my eyes. And i screamed.]
It was like a broken cd that keep looping everynight. The dream felt to real. The smell of the house, the foods, the way my father and smile, it was so real like i was actually there. I would sleep so late at night with sleeping to avoid the dreams. I could ger overdosis by it, but i could care less.
The dream getting more unbearable each time.
I look to my phone seeing its 4 in the morning. I couldn't go back to sleep, i [don't] want to go back to sleep. [ hahh] i rubbed my eyes and take my laptop from the floor. [How am i suppose to find him?, i didn't even see him properly] i thought frustatedly. For this past 2 months i've been staying in a cheap apartment checking every single cctv that might caught the guy behind my family tragic death. I've watched the video thousand of times but i havent caught a single glimpse of a person lurking. And its goddamn frustating me.
I looked to ceiling of my bedroom, it had a crack there. I sighed and put my laptop aside. I take my phone and see that a lot of missed calls and message from my friends, and even my teacher. i open the news app and see that there's still an article about my family tragedy. There's a picture of us there, above the title. Seeing it make my heart clench, i missed them so much. It make me angry how they make this article without giving me some help to solve the case. They only searched for two weeks and found nothing. They give up and leaves the case unsolve.
Ever since the police and shit stopped investigating. I also stopped going outside, only go out when im in desperate need of something or at night. It was because there's a lot of reporter asking about how i feel and shit, i mean seriously?, how the fuck do you think i would feel knowing that my family is all dead, that i will never be able to eat my moms food, that i will never be able to asked how to fix my car, that i will never be able to prank my sister again, that i've been left alone, that i didn't even get the chance to say goodbye? Exactly.
I threw my phone to side and went to the kitchen. I open the fridge and theres barely anything there.
I sighed and took some leftover frozen pizza (that probably expired, lol) and went to heated it. Bitch life with such a depression its such depressing. I know right. The microwave dinged and i go for the pizza. "Ummm, delicious".
'Don't ate delicious food, it wont make you satisfied, it will make you want more'
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