Different, Excluded

4.

{ Jake's POV }
[ at home. Also involves self harm if that bothers you please skip ahead and I'll tell u when u can read again.]

Why do I have to get hurt? It's not fair. What did I do to the world for it to treat me like this. I get good grades, I'm never disrespectful to my parents, I do my chores, I'm nice to people. Never mean. So why do I deserve this treatment for being good?
I need to cut.
Badly.
[ Jake runs into his bathroom and locks his door. He goes to the medicine cabinet and gets his blood stained razor pulls up his sleeves and starts to make cuts in his arm. ]

1. For being a wimp.
3. For his birth parents.
4. For his brother saving him from everything.
1. For only having 1 friend.
And.
7. For being bi.
A total of 16 cuts on my arm. I let the blood run out and drip to the floor. After 6 drops land on the floor I get an ace bandage and wrap it around the cuts and start to clean up the floor. Once I'm done I put my razor back in the medicine cabinet and look at myself in the mirror, and I look like shit.
[ U CAN START READING NOW ]

My face is all puffy and red, i have big bags underneath my eyes, my hair is all over the place, I sigh and wash my face do my hair get changed and put on a fake smile. Jake went downstairs to see his family and Anthony all sitting on the couch. You could see a little bruise starting to form on Logan's face. Mom and Dad were not to happy with Logan when they found out that he got into another fight. I walk up to the couch and sit in between Adam and Mom, they smile at me and Adam pulls me closer to him. Adam is just like Logan, he is very protective over the family. To be totally honest everyone in this family is very protective of me, I feel so bad for people having to worry about me. They shouldn't. No one should.
Adam: stop
Jake: what? Stop what?
Adam: blaming yourself.
Jake: How did u know (I whisper)
Adam: Because you my brother and I know you like the back of my hand. Your are blaming yourself for people saving you, and for protecting you.
Jake: But-
Adam: No buts Jake. We protect you because we love you, and we care.
Jake: Thank you.
Adam: Your welcome bub. I love you, I always will don't forget it. Your my brother and I'll never stop protecting you.
Jake: I love you to. Thank you for being here.
Adam: Always.

I smile and realize how much I'm loved in this family. Adam somehow manages to pull me even closer to him. I put my head on his chest and mom leans into my side. We sit like this for a long time until Logan stands up looking a bit anxious Mom sits up a little bit, noticing how scared/ anxious he looked.

Tracy: Logan. What's wrong bud?

Logan: Um, uh well I have to tell you something.
Matt: what's wrong son?

Logan: Um well. I'm kinda dating someone.

Tracy: Oh Logan!! That's amazing! When do we get to meet her!

Adam: Yeah you dick! I wanna meet this girl that you talk about all the damn time!
( I lift my head a little bit off of Adam's chest and laugh. A true genuine laugh. He smiles at me and starts laughing to. )

Hope: AHHH!!! Omg! Wait! Does that mean I get a new bestie to hang out with!?!?!?
Liam: Nah Hope. Who would want to hang out with you? Your lame.

Jake: ( I lift my head up agian and glare at Liam ) Hey! Liam! That's mean! I hang out with Hope! Does that make me lame!?