Got my self in quick sand playing a Redeemer. Running away from my demons, The ghosts that Hunts my soul whenever i'm alone, At night. With nothing to offer or to be chased for.'cause i'm all dried up, drained from all the soul seekers, Mosquitoes that take, take small doses till nothing left.
Wasting my time wondering My purpose is for me to choose ,what people think about me, what will they say about every move i make. Always Around as a saver with no saviour. Living as the Apple. beautiful smile outside but dying inside.
Lost my way and the will find too. The strength to face the world seems to fade as the sun from setting. Looking good in everyone eyes without them seeing my suffer. People leave you to fight alone,
You put on a fake smile, laughter to hide all your pain. But while they'll always be someone knows you're hurt. Life flies right before your eyes, lose ones you love Yet you still learn to love again.
Through it all you still have put on a front to satisfy those around you so they won't see you Break even you down to shads.
Building a wall to try to keep from getting hurt, You lock up your heart and throw away the key to see who cares enough to look for the key,
Struggles meet you in the face to watch you slip up.
listening to the sound of your tears inside,Constantly battling your fears, struggling with challenges that continuously reappear an never seems to fade, So you pretending while deep inside you care of being stuck in toxic environment, you can survive Hypocrisy and all the lies in a world full of fakes.which seems it is what we choose then what real.
No one is excluded from life's many trials, Most lessons do hurt than others, Some are short and temporary, Smothering with suffering. About those we see around.Yet how often can we be wrong?
That is the truth Is.
There's a balance to life in the way it unfolds.
That's a truth that we all come to know.
They'll be times we endure some unbearable days, Sleepless nights filled with anger and woe.
Then When it all seems to fall into place, When all that seems so right with the world, You then feel all of your pain's been erased. We're on a quest for ourselves, Searching for that internal peace, On each of our paths we may misstep and fall, We all look so different, We all have our ways,
And at times we just can't understand
That inside we're no different, our humanities, We all do the best that we can.
When people look at me, what do they see?
They see a story. A life of someone else,
a figment of my brittle imagination,
the lies buildings like a child's building blocks, even I ain't able to recognize myself, My innocence bleeding
through My thoughtless words. But I know this is serious.
The truth that I have covered up,
the questions I cannot answer, "Who am I? What do I want?" I can't find comfort even on my pain and the Feelings of sadness, grief, joy, and lonely comes emptiness. We all have these feelings, no matter how our lives are, And how we all yearn for someone to care and to be there. We all got our dark stories we got to come in terms with to keep going.
My dreams, my own personal wonderland.
I love it there. Without the chains of depression dragging me down, Them say I'm the happiest person they know. Always bubbly and free. But I guess they don't truly know me under my mask, The one I've been carrying since as long as I can remember,Has been there for me. The one thing I can count on is fake my emotions.
I'm
I hate what I've become.
what I choose to be, what done wasn't up to me. I've never gotten to choose who I want to be. But hell is where I remain even the need to find peace. But war infects my world, Darkness trapped me in the blindness of the night, How much I wanna Love,But lust had my eyes fooled. Retaining my potential.
Sometimes just have to push yourself,
Y
ou ask yourself, "Why can't it be someone else instead?",
Getting tired of all the thoughts in your head. Losing sight of who you want to be, You blame yourself, shout your voice out "Why am I me?"You wish you could just be free but what is truly being free, Open your eyes and you'll see that life. It not about freedom but what you make it, and sometimes it's hard getting battered and bruised, mistreated and scared.
Betrayal, Love, Loyalty, Respect These all part of being a human.
It also brings betrayal and death, All that is precious and won't last forever.
So enjoy it as long as you can,
Before it's gone they's never a come back or do overs, life is a journey and if you must go Then remember that first step is a hard traveled mile.
To study what lessons life has in store,
You must be willing to open each door even one you'll feel like you're a stranger to your self, Don't be afraid to experience something new for some will be a benefit to you. Never live your life in the backwards, Enjoy every day as if it were your last like that sun the rise and set. you're a human you were made to make
Mistakes so you will make a few or alot along the way, Learn from them as your reminder that you're still alive, And you'll be all okay.
Be kind and respect. For they'll be people that may be the ones to make your life complete, Be sincere in everything you do.
And treat others as you wish they would to you, Whatever you do, make sure you're content for the last thing you want is something to resent, Then go for a while
And when you return, Return with a smile. Because that will be your pass to take on the world from where you were lost now you're back home...
