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Tani POV

I always wonder why I have to suffer the way I do. Every one who tortured me had the best lives. The best clothes. The best homes. The best parents. Confidence. Every I lacked it seemed like everyone else had it.

"Hi Tani! How are you sweetie?" Mrs Myers asked smiling.

"I'm good and yourself?"

"Oh I'm alright for an old woman. Renee is in her room okay sweetie?" I smile and walk into the house. I come in her room and she tells me to shush.

"Shhhh. Yea I'm here baby. You know I gotchu tonight. Yea you better not be running again either. Ight bye mamas." My stomach turned listening to the whole conversation.

"Wassup Tani" she walked up to me kissing me roughly. I couldn't do this anymore. I pushed her off and she looked at me like I was crazy.

"What you doing?"

"We need to talk Renee." I said and she rolled her eyes.

"What now man?" I took a deep breath and looked at the ground.

"I think.....we should be together." She gave me a confused look.

"Man what you mean? You say you love me, I say that's cool and we fuck. That ain't enough or something?" She says checking her phone.

"I mean publicly....we should be together. I want the whole school to know we're together and that you love me. Not just behind closed doors Renee" She choked on her Gatorade and starting patting her chest.

"See....I'd love to be with you publicly Tani-"

"REALLY?!" I happily interrupted her sentence.

"Yea if you was a baddie.....but youre not." She said shrugging and playing Call of Duty.

"What....what do you mean?" I said trying not to cry.

"Well look at me then look at you. I look sexy so I need a sexy girlfriend on my arm. A sexy fem, stem, stud something but nobody like you. I'm hot and the girl I have to be with gotta be hot." She said simply keeping her eyes on her tv. I slowly began to get upset.

"So you're telling me.....I'm good enough to have sex with but not to date publicly?!" I yelled. She just rolled her eyes and layed on her bed.

"I love you Renee!!!! What part do you not understand??" She just shrugged

"Its not my fault. Maybe if you do something with your hair or your clothes I might be attracted to you besides when you're on my bed naked. You're not a hoe though but your my hoe ight?" I began to cry and she walked towards me.

"Hey don't cry. You can still get the strap...just not with people knowing." She pulled of my baggy clothes and looked at me.

"See....right now you look attractive." She smirked then pushed me on her bed. Why me? Why doesn't she love me?

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