In my thoughts

"Don't look at me!"

"I cried and I called but nothing resolved" ~ Lo Key

I don't know who art belongs to

Hello again, I am gonna write about what I felt this day. So basically I was alone, no friends this morning and I was normally sitting alone cuz well... no friends? My friends was away this morning to do something else with school so there I was, sitting alone, doing what I do best; Thinking to myself. It was a pretty calm morning except that I got the weird feeling everyone was watching me, giving me weird looks and laughing and talking to themselves about me, so I got slight anxiety, my breathing got faster, heart started beating harder, I got into a state of panic which only I noticed, I told myself "Don't look at me..." a lot, over and over without it stopping even for a second, my mind telling me I ain't worth it. So I took the measurements of listening to music to calm my mind a bit, but the feeling people was looking at me did not stop, it kept going and is not stopping as I am writing this, am I really that disgusting? Am I really that worthless? Am I really... not wanted...?