Your Goodbye

Where am i?

It's so dark.

"Zoey! Zoey! Wake up!" someone is calling me

"Mmmhhh~~~! M-mom?" I open my eyes and saw my mom

"We're here honey." I get up and look around

Ah! Ho--ho--how? It's him?! Its really him!!!

I run towards him and he was really suprise.

"What wrong, Zoey?" He ask worriedly

"No. Nothing. I'm glad you're here." I said to him while hugging him.

I don't care if my mom saw me hugging him. I don't care if they judge me. I love him. I really do!

"I have something to tell you." I said shyly breaking the hug.

"I want to say it before its too late that i--i-- lo---" i couldn't finish what i'm about to say.

I am now inside the church. What's happening?!

*sob. sob*

Someone is crying. I look beside me and i saw him crying as he was holding my hand. I pat his back as my tear fell down.

This was the time that his friend died, my grandma's son. I rested my head in his shoulder. I really miss the warmth of his hand.

Huh?

What the heck is this?!

What i saw after was like a slide show of my memories together with him.

The time we held hand when we ride the car,when we pray to the church and when we went to the cinema.

And the time, he went to my hometown to court me and he spent his christmas holiday to my house instead of spending with his family.

For 4 years of courting, i keep rejecting him. My mother and big brother was so strict and they didn't want me to have a boyfriend because i'm too young and i have to finish school, go to college, graduate and work. They also didn't like him because he was too old for me and maybe i was immature to have a lover.

I was 17 and he's 5 years older than me. I know i'm in love with him at that time but the opinion of other people influence my decision.

I WAS SO STUPID.

I'm now at the back seat with my grandma. And i look at the front seat of the car and there he is but no longer alone. He was with somebody else and that hurts me so much but i'm happy for him to found someone else he love.

"Kuya!!!" I called out to him

My tears start to fall. H
I know he heard me but he didn't even look back

But then

He look back and smiling

"Kuya!!!" I shout

No. Is that how you said goodbye to me?! I cried but happy at the same time.

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I change my clothes and went to visit him the bext morning.

"Kuya, how dare you?! I thought that you will be angry and hate me because i reject you and hurt you!!! I couldn't even confess to you!!! How---how can you show me that smile?!" I said to him.

It started to rain and i'm drenching. I forgot to bring an umbrella.

"So, that was your goodbye? I didn't even said i love you again. I couldn't even say goodbye to you for the last time." I cried so so hard to let out the pain. So, this is what it felt like to be heartbroken. My heart hurts so bad that its so hard to breathe.

"Kuya, thank you for loving me. I want to tell you for the last time. I love you and goodbye. Rest in peace."

Its my turn to say goodbye to him. I place my flower on his grave.

I was sad and i'm gonna miss him but i'm glad that he showed up in my dream and say His Goodbye.

-The end