Pressure

Chapter 5

I can feel his arms wrap around me and it hurts soo fucking bad cause of all my bruises I got. He whispers sweet things into my ear and it calms me, knowing he's taking care of me is an amazing feeling. I never really had this. Before I can realize what's happening I'm in his flat, laying on his couch.

"I'm gonna get you some water alright? Just don't move." And then he's out of my sight. Every move is hurting. Even breathing is hard. I don't even wanna know how I look like. How can he even look at me without throwing up? And what the fuck happened to Ben?  So many questions that won't get answers. I sigh.

"I can't do this anymore", I whisper to myself. 

"What you can't do anymore Leyla?" Damn. Why he always shows up when I'm at my weakest.

"Ugh nothing... it was a bad idea to come to your flat. I should just leave. But thanks for your..." he cuts me off before I can finish my sentence.

"Could you just shut the fuck up and tell me what's going on. Running away isn't even a option Leyla. You know we will run into each other some time again. So just face it and stop this bullshit." He yells.

I'm shocked at his harsh words. What is wrong with him? He doesn't even know me and tells me what to do. That's wrong. So wrong. I start crying. This is to much pressure for me.

Harry walks over to me and pulls me into his chest.  "I'm sorry, I didn't want to yell at you but you're so.. so hard to look through. You always want to be the cool one. But you shouldn't be like that. Let me help you love."

My tears are running down my cheeks. I just can't stop crying. This is all to much for me. Yes I love to act like nothing can hurt me. But the truth is every little thing is getting worse. Step by step I'm breaking down without anyone knowing.

"I'm sorry too, I shouldn't drag you into my problems Harry. And I'm sorry that I'm here crying like a baby." I look into his eyes. He's so beautiful. I lean forward and he does also. Our lips connecting slightly before I pull away.

"Come here love." He pulls me closer and kisses my forehead. "You are so cute, you know that don't you?" He whispers into my ear.

I chuckle. "I'm far away from being cute Harry. You don't know me. The real me. And you don't even wanna know. My past is a mess."

He hugs me even tighter after my response. "Ouch,you hurt me."

"Oh sorry I didn't want to." He apologise. "So why did Ben do this to you?"

"What? Do you know Ben?" I'm shocked and pull away from him. Shit.

"Yes, he's the brother from my ex-girlfriend.  So tell me why did he do this to you? And why do you even hang out with him. He's bad news."

"I-I ummm...." I stutter and look to the ground.

"You can tell me Leyla." He places his fingers under my chin so I have to look at him.

"I-I had some money problems a few years ago. And well he helped me. I gave him the money back a few months ago. But he just won't let it go. So he made me a deal. And I accepted it. I'm not even supposed to talk about that." Tears filling up my eyes.

"Ehh...shhh don't cry babe." He whispers and kisses my tears away.

"You make me weak Harry. Why do you even care so much?"

"Honestly?  I don't know. But I know I have to protect you from Ben. He's a Bastard."

I lean into him and start to kiss him. He does the same. He shoves his tongue inside my mouth. Our tongues move in sync. Damn, he's a good kisser. I think to myself.

He cups my head into his hands. And let out a moan. I grab him by his neck and moan into his mouth. He pushes me down and lays on top of me. My hands are traveling down his arms. He starts to kiss my neck.  My head falls back. He thrust his hips against me and I feel his bulge growing.

"Harry..." I whisper.

"Leyla..." He whispers back.

"I don't want to interrupt you but my whole body is in pain." I blush while telling him.

"Oh fuck sorry." He pulls away. "You know what,it's late anyways. We should go to bed. Getting some rest so we can talk in the morning about everything." I nod. "You can sleep in my bedroom with me. I won't let you sleep here Leyla." He smirks at me while grabbing my hand.

"Okay,okay." I chuckle and we walk to his bedroom.  When we arrive,he's going straight to his closet. "Here, you can wear my clothes." He winks.

"Thanks." I turn around to change. Damn every move hurts. I wince with every move I make.

"Hey let me help you love."

Before I know we're done with changing my clothes and I'm laying down on his bed. He's laying next to me and pulls me closer to him. 

"Good night love, just close your eyes.  Nobody can hurt you.  I'm here. "

I close my eyes and whisper a good night to harry.

* the next morning *

I just got out of Harry's flat sneaking around. I know he will be mad at me but I can't do this. He can't know why Ben did what he did. He just can't. Nobody is supposed to know. And everything I told him was a lie last night. Except that Ben made a deal and I accepted it.

I walked about an hour to arrive home. I texted Tracey through out the walk and told her I'm good and just left with a dude last night to have a good time. Of course she believed me. Why wouldn't she? I always end up in somebody's bedroom and getting fucked. That's who I am. That's how I handle all this Pressure.

My phone is buzzing and I see a text from Harry.

From: Harry

I'm on my way to you. ;) xx

How does he even know where I fucking live. What a creep. But a fucking hot one to be honest.

I walk into my driveway to see Ben standing there talking to my mum. No no no no.

Before I can turn around my mum is calling my name. Great. Let the show begin.

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