My dignity out the window
My self-respect on the floor
I don't care
I don't care what you think of me anymore
I just need momentary joy
A final breath of fresh air
I look around at all of these people
Who are they?
What do they want from me?
They're all so beautiful
I wish I was a part of it
I watch as they all laugh
Because I'm never in on the joke
unless I'm the punchline
Their smiles are all glowing
I long for things I've never had
To make them all laugh
To make them all smile
They look at me
like I'm a foreign object
Something they can't quite dissect
I want to shrink
They're staring at
the scars and the fat and the filth
They aren't sure what to make of me
I'm not sure what to make of me
No need to stare
I want to have collar bones
I want to have a pointy jaw
I want to become a skeleton
I want to eat
and never stop
Why is this the only thing I succeed in
I want you to notice me
I want to make you smile
But I can't
