"Leo. Please, don't," I stared at him with wide eyes, fear pounding through me as he stood within inches of me, taller than me, stronger than me, he could probably force me into anything and I'm so scared. I don't want to, I don't want to touch him, I definitely don't want him to touch me, I want to stop being so fucking scared all the time but I can't. The idea of it makes my heart race.
He takes another small step towards me and I flinch against the wall. His dark brown eyes connect with mine and I stare back at him pleadingly.
"Please Leo," I try again and he sighs and places a hand on either side of my head, ensuring that I'm completely frozen.
"I know you're scared," he breathes, and I know he isn't going to let me go, "just try. Okay? Just let me help you."
I shake my head frantically, unable to think through the haze of panic.
"I can't! It's scary, it's so scary and I'm not strong enough," I cry out, feeling tears gather. I don't want to!
"Shh," he soothes gently, and even though I know he won't hurt me, I know he won't really touch me if I tell him not to, I'm still scared. We're so close to each other right now. "It's okay. Calm down."
"Leo-" I start to try again and he shakes his head silently, leaning in closer and making me yelp.
"It isn't so bad, darling. Not so bad at all. Just give me a chance." He says, and I wince again. He sounds so vulnerable, so open in that second and I just want to give him everything I can, do everything for him.
"I-I..." I trail off and he throws puppy eyes at me. "You know I can't." I feel like I'm the one begging him.
"Please. Just once, let me touch you. One time. Let me kiss you," he pleads with me, and I stare at him, conflicted.
"No. Go away."
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Haphephobia
RomanceNoah suffers from a serious fear of being touched, and touching other people. Nobody has ever been able to change that, and has to isolate himself as much as possible so that he doesn't hurt them. Because when people care about you, they want to tou...
