My Baby Doll (Bucky Barnes x reader)

chapter 04

I'm sorry that I haven't written anything in months. I've just been having a hard time for a couple of months now.

"Oh, yeah, of course, it's just on the 4th floor," Bucky said as a blush started to appear on his face. (Y/n) gave him a smile

"lead the way Captain!" Bucky smiled back at (Y/n).

"I'm definitely no Captain, but Steve definitely is a Captain" Bucky started leading his way to the elevator with (Y/n) close behind.

"Aww come on! You'd be such a cool Captain like people would respect you a lot, not saying they don't, but you would such a cool captain. Oh! And your metal arm just makes you look so badass too!" Bucky couldn't help but feel joy from how excited (Y/n) was from talking about Bucky being a Captain. (Y/n) and Bucky chatted away the whole way to the living room talking about random things.

"Okay, wait? Fried butter? Your joking that's not a thing!" (Y/n) let out a laugh at Bucky's nonbeliever in fried butter.

"I'm telling you, it's a thing! My brother ate a stick of fried butter once!" Bucky looked at (Y/n) with suspicion.

"Still don't believe you" (Y/n) smiled and laughed some more. Bucky couldn't help but admire how happy and joyful (Y/n) was right now. Her laugh was so cute and joyful and her smile just lit up the whole room.

"I see you two are getting along." Bucky looked over to see Steve and the rest of the gang sitting on the couch.

"You must be the (Y/n), Steve was just telling us about you," Natasha said as she got up and walked over to (Y/n) with a drink in her hand.

"Yeah! I-I'm (Y/N), it's n-nice to meet you!" (Y/n) started blushing from tripping over her words. Natasha stuck her hand out to (Y/n)

"Natasha, it's nice to meet you too" (Y/n) shook Natasha's hand

"Can I just say that I admire you a lot! You're so beautiful and so badass! Without you, I feel like the Avengers would just be Chaos" (Y/n) couldn't believe that the beautiful and amazing Black Widow was in front of her.

"Well if you think about it, we're already chaos, because there was that big airport fi-"

"That's enough," Tony and Steve said cutting Peter off. (Y/n) looked over to see a boy sitting next to Tony. He looked nervous to be there. Peter noticed (Y/n) looking at him and he started to blush. He quickly looked away. (Y/n) let go of Natasha and walked over to where Peter was.

"Hi, I'm (Y/n)" Peter looked up at (Y/n) and quickly stood up.

"I-I'm Peter, P-Peter Parker" (Y/n) smiles at Peter.
"Well, it's nice to meet you, Peter." (Y/n) introduced herself to the rest of the team. Everyone joked and chatted with (Y/n) as the day started to become night. After a while, Natasha and Pepper started to prepare dinner. (Y/n) would help them from here and there. As everyone was talking Steve pulled Bucky into the hallway.

"Admit it you like her" Steve said with a smile on her face.
"I don't like her Steve," Bucky said denying what Steve said.

"You can't hide it from me, it's pretty obvious, the way you looked at her when she was talking or how you smiled when she laughed, it's really obvious!" Steve said with a smile "You haven't been that happy in years Bucky, come on!" Bucky hands turned into fists as you looked Steve straight in the eyes and said.

"I don't like her. I don't even know what love is anymore. I don't feel love. So stop saying I like her! Because I don't, you dirty street boy" Bucky bumped Steve's shoulder as he left to go up to his room, upset at what Steve said. Steve sighed as he went back into the living room and sat down.

"Dinner is ready" Natasha yelled out as (Y/n) set the table. Steve got up and went over and sat down next to (Y/n). Everyone started serving themselves and eating. (Y/n) was about to take a bite of her food but as she was she noticed that Bucky wasn't at the table.

"Hey, Steve where is Bucky?" (Y/n) asked as she turned to Steve.

"He's up in his room, got a little upset at something I said" Steve took a bite of his food. (Y/n) looked down at her plate sadly.

"Oh..." (Y/n) then got up and made a plate. "I'm going to go give Bucky his dinner, he should at least eat something" Steve nodded as (Y/n) walked away to give Bucky his dinner.

(Y/n) gently knocked on Bucky's door before slowly entering. (y/n) Saw Bucky sitting on his bed facing the other way.

"Bucky? I brought you dinner" Bucky growled slightly

"Go away" (y/n) didn't listen, she went over and sat down next to him.

"Wanna talk about it?" She asked. Bucky replied with silence.

(Y/n) sighed, "I know we're not that close and we basically just met, I want you to know I'm always open to talk if you need. It's one of the things I was trained to do, listen" (Y/n) got up and put Bucky's food on the nightstand next to him.
"You should at least eat something, it's not good to be upset on an empty stomach" As (Y/n) was walking away Bucky got up and grabbed her arm.
"Actually, can I talk to you? I would talk to Steve but he's the one that got me upset"  Bucky blushed as the looked at the (Y/n).

(Y/n) gave him a soft smile. "Of course" Bucky let's go of (Y/n)'s arm and sits back down on the bed. (Y/n) does the same.

"What is it that you wanna talk about?"

"Being happy" Bucky said softly.

"Oh, so happiness. Are you unhappy?"

"I...I don't know. When I talked to Steve he told me something and told me it was the first time I've looked happy in years. But I thought I was happy. I mean I can't tell what happiness even is because of everything I went through but I still think  I'm happy... I just don't know"

"Well, what did Steve say?"

"He said I liked someone" Bucky mumbles.

"Oh, may I ask who?

Bucky stays quite not wanting to embarrass himself.

" That's okay, you don't have to say. Well, it depends on how that person makes you feel. If you feel butterflies in your stomach and feel excited to see them then yeah, that person probably makes you happy. And maybe the person that makes you happy, you might like or love..."  (Y/n) mumbles the word Love.

Bucky chuckles slightly. "Me? Love? I haven't felt love in years. I probably won't find the right gal to love."

"Well at least you know what love feels like, you're at least able to identify it. I don't even know the feeling" (y/n) says rolling her eyes. Bucky looks over at (Y/n)

"You don't know what love feels like?"
(Y/n) blushes and shakes her head.

"So you're telling me you have never been in love. Ever"

"I didn't know what love is until me and my brother escaped"

Bucky hesitates before speaking  "It's a wonderful feeling at the same time it sucks. Because if you fall in love with someone...it first when they don't love you back. Love is a beautiful but cruel thing"

(Y/n) fidgets with her fingers "I hope one day I can feel love"

Bucky wraps his arm around (y/n) I'm sure one day you will kid. You're a pretty lady, I'm sure someone will fall for you"

(Y/n) chuckles and smiles. "Thanks, captain"

"I told you, Steve is the captain"

"Well I think you're a captain too"