I Wanna Get Close (One Shot Story)

Hindi ko akalaing ikaw lang… ikaw lang ang nakapaglaga at nakapagpalambot sa puso kong bato…

 (for PA-CUTE background, kindly play the song at the right part of this story. thanks!)

Dear Love Life (na di ko naman hinahanap, pero nagpakita; di ko kailangan pero nagparamdam; at di ko kilala bigla na lang nagpakilala),

                All along, all I know is just that I can live on my own. I have my friends, my family, my ever cute and lovable dog, Shi-shi, and a life that anyone can dream of. I can live independently without bothering where will I go, or what will I eat, or who am I with. I’m happy living with this. And I love being with this.

                Until one time, that one time, you came with your mom. Di ko akalaing mag-bestfriend pala ang mga nanay natin?! Gwapo ka naman, disenteng tao, mabait… okay na yun. Yun pa lang ang alam ko non, hindi ko akalaing ikaw lang… ikaw lang ang nakapaglaga at nakapagpalambot sa puso kong bato…

                Hindi ka naman excited makilala ako, di ba? Agad-agad? PBB Teens ka ba? Pero ibang klase ka dumiskarte ke madir. Ikaw na! Ikaw na talaga as in! :D

                Wala pang 24 hours nang magkakilala tayo pero ang intensity ng pagkilala sakin, grabe lang. at, napansin ko rin na we’re on the same school and course. It’s just that, nauna ka lang sa’kin nag-aral. Imagine, kagagraduate ko lang, ikaw naman katatapos mo lang ng masters mo. And imagine your BMW 5-Series car on our front door? Don’t worry, I have my Mazda MX-5 Miata, so it will be yours or mine. Haha.

                Anyway, it doesn’t matter if it’s a good car or what. What matters here are us.

                You told me all; I think, about yourself, so as mine. I can’t imagine that we have so much in common. Mula sa habit hanggang sa pagiging independent. So, are you saying that we’re meant to be?

                Those days turned to weeks, weeks to months, and months to a year. At habang ginagawa ko to, it’s been a year when we first met. We’re still on the “getting to know each other”. Daig pa natin ang kanta ni Ariel Rivera na paulit-ulit tumutugtog sa playlist ko to the nth time.

                Pero…

                Di ko man maamin sa’yo… takot ako… takot akong mag-take ng risk to get it into the higher level.

                The letters (yeah, you want it OLD STYLE. And I love it. Parang high school lang), the flowers, the stuff toys, the receipts (oo na, napaka-pack rat ko), and all those stuffs are still here. The photographs from our birthday, Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year, Valentine’s Day, Halloween, fiesta gatherings, baptism, even regular Sunday service and fellowships are kept all in “our” scrapbook. Those memories are for keeps, just as my love for you are for keeps.

                Teka lang…

                Did I say that I love you? Now, I tell you.

                Oo na. ikaw na ang mahal.

                Kaya lang…

                Strict ang parents ko e. ;p

                Di bale, si mom payag naman na. Si kuya? E kasabay mo ngang tumambay yon sa music room e. Si dad? Multuhin ka nya sana. Joke! Magpaalam ka muna kay Shi-shi.

                Yup. I love you. From the tip of my hair up to the calluses of my feet it shouts I love you. I love you from the day that our eyeballs met until the time that our palms reach each other. I love you since the day that you gave that blue rose. I love you from the time that you sing “happy birthday” and dance it to the tune of Macarena. I love you since the day I told you “Ayoko nga sabi.”

                Don’t worry my dear. Hangga’t di ka umaamin e hindi rin ako aamin. I’ll fight for being Maria Clara to the end even if it kills me to be in your arms at talagang parang mapapatay na kita sa sobrang tagal mo.

                Di bale, love naman kita.

I’ll be loving you long time,

Nikki <3

I was about to fold my letter when someone put a post it note on top of my letter…

Nikki,

                Your wish has been granted.

Your Love Life

Pagtingin ko sa likod ko…

“Nikki…

Could you be my girl? For keeps?”

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