When love becomes war!
(He feels insecure and unworthy)
Letter 4
I wouldn't want to give up on you but I've declared a never ending disappointment in you. My heart previews your love and I saw no flaw, I could endure. But taking a night stand with my friend. Damn it.
Add a reverse to my thoughts where I couldn't hear a bad thing of you. Forgiveness is divine, but this hurt me in my spine.
I thought you were the one for me, my heart never said no. I wrote you my best poems and I told you I was all alone when I saw you, I told you I'll love you till you're old and beyond. You said you'd be my favorite fan, but I was just your Peter Pan.
Life without love isn't a straight run but I'm drowning in the pain of ignorance eating up my heart. All day long I just wanted to put on your love as a jacket and I didn't want to lose you I wished I had a pocket. Nature decides I guess. One thing I know is that my heart had only one home address and I believe when one door closes another opens or the same opens with a little push. My mistakes never made me lesser than me I stood up and accepted it. I don't want to know whatever happened because I'm to take your word for everything but my fears are very handsome and have a lot of energy because you've been acting strange, you've manipulated your emotions towards me, I can't say how I feel because right now I can't have my heart beautiful.
No disrespect but I didn't sign up for a typical unreality. I've been wondering why distance came in between us even when we were a call away. I would have loved you better. But what's meant to be would be.
*A part of me that expresses thoughts says this:
"Do you believe what you tell yourself? can you hear me or hear yourself? I'm not sure you can because a stranger is here. She was everything and now is she anything? there is something, think there's something too. Do you think leaving is an option, I'm your instincts let me function, the price, can you pay? The pain you'll pay. Listen please, Will I or will you not be here? For me, I'll be here, there, and everywhere, my skin we shall pair, the skin of my face you shall spare. Please, be calm, stay cool, and don't shout its Her! it's Her! "*
I'm not open to any ideas and thoughts anymore, no one goes there, my inspiration of taking a break as you wish is legit. I wouldn't have missed a breath for you but right now my heart has so many holes till I see you in my presence with no stains, I knew you with. Okoro needed more love and he decided to let his heart go into chaos. Inside life.
