❄ IT STARTED WITH A LIE ❄

Chapter - Throwback 05

taehyung was anxious heck he's more than just
afraid knowing his and his child's life is in
danger .from that early morning he'd woken up
with unbearable pain crushing in the pit of his
coil and something oozing out of him from
swirling inner of his system gave him enough
reason that something is oddly wrong with them
and really does bring him far beyond terrified .
he must be disgusted of himself bearing the fact
of his dark past . having the result of his own
misery . having the child of a man he didn't
even had a chance to got a simple glimpse of
the face of . but after experiencing those simple
movement of the baby inside , feeling its own
heart beat pound along him , and witnessing its
cute active kick underneath his expanding bump
change him . changes his perceptions about
anything and everything around him.about life.
he felt sorry for the way how rudely he treated
his hyung just because the elder want him to
keep the baby. he felt sorry for those days he
hadn't talk to his own mother just because she
want him to eat properly and took care the both
of them to be healthy and that she badly love
her unborn grandchild that it's almost more
than him. He felt sorry for himself as he
couldn't kill the fear inside his head from the
deadly nightmare of his traumatic night which
only drag him to negativity and self prison
behaviors. And mostly he felt deeply sorry for
the baby he's carrying. that wasn't even on
single fault to any of this yet he treated like
burden and curse . that needed to got rid off by
starving and drowning himself in depression that
might end the both of them through passing
days and way easiest for him . but man he's
painfully wrong now the baby giving and
showing symptoms of giving up which seems like
giving his shellfish desire a grant . but he felt
like having a taste of his own sickly medicine . it
made him sick even on the thought alone of
despising his own child an innocent soul , an
angel. now he's afraid by his own sin . wrong
deeds which bring them here life against death.
before he's shellfish for his own good well now
he's definitely selfless that when the doctors
came in he'll be telling them to save his child
and its safety aside from him or more likely
aside of him . his energy decreasing by each
passing time . pain adding its intense with every
breath of his . he can also feel his child inside
him grasping for dear life and fighting through
pain with him in every movement. eye lids
becoming heavy and body slowly drifting it's
own to limp . trembling easing but diverting to
internal ache badly kicking him out of
consciousness . but taehyung can't let these
feelings drive him off. he can't let himself get
carried and away with it he needs to fight back .
to suppress its possibilities . he had to be awake
for safety . for their assurance . for the both of
them . but mostly for his child.
' I'm sorry for all I've done wrong to you my
child . . . I'm sorry for blaming it all to you. . .
sorry that I ignored you . . . I despised you for
these miseries . . . i bring so much pain . . . I'm
sorry forgive me please '
a painful tear of regret rolled down thickly on
his trembling cheek . feeling himself inching
close to give up. he shook his head as he bit
plump lower lip that swell up by the force he's
applying to resist the jolting pain . taehyung lay
a hand on his stomach as the baby move it's
limb inside somewhat helping him to stay awake
. he caresses its surface to calm its unsettling
movements . also evening his breathing for the
both of them. another slash of pain whip them
that sends him sitting up on the bed with
gasping scream of agony holding his lower part
bump with both his hands .the baby kick in
squirming inside by the intense hit which made
him sobbed uncontrollably .
' I'm so so so sorry . . . ma - mama is so sorry
baby . . . . please forgive me let me make things
up to you . . . please stay with me . . . or at
least for them . . . for hyung and mom if you
can't with me if you hate and angry to me . . .
they love you my child and I do now too I'm
sorry '
Mira was about to get inside her son's hospital
room after hearing his breathy loud scream but
was held back by the doctor and her elder son
himself that had their own teary eyes shaking
their head . she can predict herself faint at any
time now as she knows the two precious people
of her life is in so much pain and danger and
she can't do anything but to yell in protest
wanting to be freed from their hold and look
after her son's and unborn grandchild's
condition.
" Mrs Kim we need your decision now "
Seokjin cry in silent as he hug her mother from
behind he's feeling weak and helpless by the
situation too but he needs to be strong for her
he needs to ensure her emotions more than
him as for who knows what might she gonna do
to her self .
Doctor Jim hate it more than anything he's
about to do with this chaos. He cleared his
throat as he swallowed the lump that had
formed suppressing his emotion of sympathy for
them. he doesn't want to but he had to before
things get too worse .
" so . . . is it the baby or the carrier ? "
Mira loose it .
" H - HOW COULD YOU SAY T-THAT !!? WHY
WOULD YOU LABELED THEM L-LIKE THEY'RE N-
NOTHING TO ME !! BOTH OF T-THEM ARE
IMPORTANT TO ME ! TO U-US !! I NEED THE B-
BOTH OF T-THEM I I - WANT THE T-TWO OF
THEM TO S-SURVIVE !!!"
the doctor looked down as the mother shout at
him and keep on ranting still being held by her
son who was sobbing behind her silently he
didn't want any of this taehyung's case is
sensitive so was his bearing and it made things
worse by his own carelessness and deeds but he
can't blame the boy neither of them as its hard
to deal with his past alone how it it's more to
have a child of his rapist. he wanted to save
both of them but mercy needs to light them .
with last drop of tear rolls down his stained
cheek taehyung gasp for his last awake air .
looking around everything white in the room.
rubbing his numbing bump with his shaky hand
before letting himself give up from its
consciousnes .
' I love you my child please don't leave and
mama is so sorry '
Dr Jim halfheartedly took the action on his
hands as the mother finally fainted after her
breakdown on her sons embrace and the
brother can't seem to decide on this too nor
can't even calm himself from sobbing helplessly
holding his passed out mom. The scene before
him is terrible you could have said he should
probably been used to it but no he had plenty
of this sorts but Kim's family is different and an
opposite case cause Dr . Jim patients is not on
average he's special. Taehyung is a rare . a
complicated one .
After sending his mom to one of the free
hospital's room Seokjin walked back on the
lobby and sat on the same waiting chair . he's
mobile read 2:45 dawn and lit up with
notifications. he put it down and frantically
looked around as he'd noticed the personal
doctor is no where and already walked off the
place . this give him chills sending his blood rush
of cold as the said man is probably on the
operating room . he looked back and forth in
nervousness then finally a female nurse made
it's way out of the room which his brother's
Direction's room alley checking a clipboard on
her hand and walking in speed so Seokjin
strolled straight to her almost instantly that got
the female startled in shock .
" I uh...the I am brother I mean . . . I'm the
brother of the patient on that operating room
you'd came from and i I just want to know if Dr
Jim is already there and I di - did - "
Seokjin rumbled as the nurse instantly
understand him and cut him off by waving her
hand .
" oh okay sir yes Dr Jim was already inside and
starting the operation were just gathering the
things needed for it before everything but
unfortunately he fell asleep and that-"
but she also got cut off short by Seokjin that
held a look of fear and anxiousness .
" what do you mean by t-that ? I I mean is t-
that bad for h-him or for the b-baby or should I
s-say for the both of t-them to be u-
unconscious throughout t-the operation ? "
the nurse was about to response but the alarm
bell rung and signaled all of the other nurses to
rush in and start their task . she apologetically
bow at him and left strolling fast that Seokjin
can't do anything but to stare on space she last
stood at.
' oh God please save the both of them please
please oh lord give mercy '
He pulled up his hair in frustration as he paced
out back in forth silently crying on the eerie
hallway .
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Jungkook woke up from another nightmare of
taehyung screaming in pain and calling for help
to him thick beads of cold sweats stroll down his
temple and nape as he shot up on bed gasping
for air to recollect himself from the scary dream
he's been having every single nap he take.
But this one is extremely different from others
before . this one seems actual and feels so real
to be just another nightmare of his. jungkook
frantically looked around and sure enough he
was still in his room on his house . in reality but
the scene kept playing on his mind clearly .
taehyung screaming and crying clutching
something on his stomach while other hand
reaching out for him and calling his name again
and again . the look on his face scream pain ,
helpless , agony and fear .that haunt him every
single day of his life. It seems so real so true
that he can feel himself reaching out for the
other too and and bring him near him to protect
him in his arms to assure him to end what ever
pain he's dealing.
But every time jungkook take a step the elder's
sight fading and his figure retreating back to
darkness. It breaks him a lot it made him want
to run more and more to him but every time he
did taehyung slowly and painfully disappearing
piece by piece .
and when he's just about an inch away from
pulling the elder out of the swallowing dark
everything turns to light again and consciousness
immediately sends him back to reality. waking
him up from that place . and that's thing made
fact of its all just a dream a horrible and
terrifying dreams that never seems to stop and
only boasting up.
with trembling body and tearing eyes jungkook
dialed a certain one on his phone . the usual
one .
After just two rung the call got picked by a
certain person who greets him with groan and
husky tone probably by the fact of ungodly hour
" h-hyung please p-please help me its t-to much
I c- can't take it an- anymore "
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Seokjin got a message on his phone he just
spare a glance on it once as it was place down
on the same of his seat . while he kept on
pacing out . he doesn't even know whom it must
be from and couldn't care less either his mind
is fogged up with nothing but worries , anxiety ,
stress or what ever the hell may the other be
he's so messed up right now as he couldn't
even calm himself . knowing his pregnant
brother is on operation currently and his mother
is passed out due to overwhelming problems
they were having .
all he wanted to do by now is to run there and
get inside the room and hold taehyung's hand
conscious or not just to be there on his side to
support him to whisper encouraging words . to
tell him everything is going to be fine to assure
not just the younger but also himself .
Seokjin doesn't have anyone to rely on beside
his own . he didn't had any friend to tend on
that was not either helping at all .
' do I did something terrible before for these
things to happen to us ? '
' did I commit big sin to suffer like this ? All I
want is to have a complete happy happily and
at peace '
Seokjin wipe out harshly on his cheeks as the
tears didn't seems to stop pouring out his
reddish tired eyes . he felt lonely fighting and
waiting alone on the eerie hallway dealing with
his own negative thoughts all alone. it's making
him weak and small but who can blame him if
all of us needed someone to be at our side in
these kind of situations while he couldn't even
have one . but he needs to be strong to stay all
up . even its too much . even if it feels like
killing him each passing seconds . he had to. he
needs to . as taehyung's case is more difficult
than all of this .
The younger. his brother's life is at risk so was
his nephew's . no one knows who would survive
between them . no one knows if any of the two
can make it either . and no one knows what was
the doctor's action too as Seokjin can't even
decide for this on his own . I mean how . he's
helpless all of them was . he couldn't do
anything . he can't think properly too . but one
thing is clear on
his mind he wouldn't ever gonna forgive the
person who caused all of this .
all his head screams is revenge to that person.
call it wrong and terrible but Seokjin is sure of
himself he's willing to kill him . his once a father
. the monster . the reason behind all this
miseries from the start till now . he wanted to
fight back to punish him to made him feel the
things he does to himself too . in the most
brutal and unforgettable way . but he can't . he
doesn't even know where the man is . he
doesn't even sure of himself if he could face
him .
' all I want is for us to be complete and fine is it
too much ? '
Seokjin break down once again.
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Dr . Jim got the things he needed just on Time
as the other nurse help him all the way this is
such a difficult one but he's going for the two
cause he knows the carrier can have it too. he
just have to take it easy , carefully and
processed.
a handy scissor was handed to him and he nods
on his assistance before looking back on his
unconscious patient on the bed . you could say
he really does gone through worse pain judging
on his crunched up fac . The younger had a
hand on his stomach while the other one was
still curled down on the mattress beneath him
but grip had loose up . he looks so pure and
young . the doctor couldn't understand why'd
fate would put such a nice humble boy in this
chaos . why does destiny have to be cruel to
him as he can't even hurt a fly .
Dr Jim knew it would be much of a difficult since
the start but he doesn't predict it to be gone
like this that one of the rarest ones would end
up at risk . but as a professional doctor he
would do his best and all he could to save both
the mother and the child . sure its a hella huge
task but he's willing to give anything for this
one . for this especial and most important one .
with last glance up on his team around him ,
Jim held the scissor up before lowering it and
drag down from the collar of the patient's gown
down to hem . ripping the cloth off .
" let's do this "
so the dawn goes on like that two times
taehyung's heart had stopped beating in the
middle of the operation on them and Dr Jim
reviving him back to life to proceed with aching
head , nervousness and fear.
Seokjin got a call and finally he picked it he goes
outside as the caller told him to . he doesn't
know what gotten into him but he listened and
went to the instructed direction the place was
dim and quite . so silent that it gives him chills
and somehow driving him insane . so as fast as
he does got there is as same as he rush out of
there in speed .
Seokjin had know idea and of course again
doesn't know why but he find no one one in
there . i that place . that scary one to be exact .
and the caller is anonymous .
Dr. Jim managed to save and assure one life but
the other is critical .
Seokjin got the news immediately from the
nurse who barge out and he didn't know how to
feel about . he didn't know how to react cause
while he walked back on the alley another nurse
told him that they were this two man ask for his
brother's condition and for his location as he
ask who was them to her the nurse can't tell
him as they didn't say their names but she said
the two seems different and suspicious .
Seokjin couldn't find his mother too when he
came back she's already out of the room she
was laid awhile ago and no one seen her and
the nurse's words keeps repeating on his mind .
" yes I must say they really is different sir but
the much younger one told me he's the father
of the child your brother was carrying "
* sigh *
' oh god what am I going to do '