Ca$hLife (BB TRILOGY)

Love 'Em All

'Cause they think I love 'em but I love 'em all. Love 'em all ye-yeah, I need another one to get over the other one, Another one ye-yeah

-K.Michelle

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Cashmerre's Pov.

I've been driving around ATL for hours clearing my mind. In all honesty, I know I'm the cause of all of this. I really wanted to get back at Varo and the fact that me and Khallil have a lot of history and I still have feelings for him just made it easier. I Have feelings for the both of them. Khallil was my childhood sweet heart, he taught me so much and I have so much respect for that man. Even though we're 4 years apart I still managed to fall in love with his ass. He was my first love and my first heartbreak. 

My mind drifted off back to the last time I seen Khallil before I left for Compton last year.

"I can't believe yo ass moving to wack ass Cali."  Khallil smacked his lips and leaned against his car.

I moved to Compton in 2 days and I was devastated . I was leaving my life behind , I didn't wanna leave my town , my friends, my family, and especially not Khallil.

"Me either, I don't wanna move away." 

"You know imma miss you,"

"Whatever Khallil, You gone move on to the next bitch as soon as my flight leave." I rolled my eyes. 

Last week I gave my virginity to  Khallil and after that he's been acting like a fuck boy. Sydney told me her brother had a function and khallil was there with a whole lot of bitches up under him. I confronted him about it and he proceeded to tell me, since I'm moving he figured whatever we had was done. That hurt me to the core but I guess he's right, long distance relationships are difficult. Khallil is almost 21, he doesn't wanna be waiting on a 16  year old to get their life together.

"Here you go, Cash I told you I could never replace you shorty. You something different-"

"Yeah but you're still gonna fuck other girls, stop trynna fill my head up with make believe."  He sighed and grabbed my waist pulling me into a hug.

"I'm not gonna lie Cash, I can't promise I won't but that shit won't mean nun. You my shorty no matter what, It's more than this relationship shit. I been rocking with you for almost  6 years. You my family and you probably the girl imma marry." He said looking into my eyes. I had butterflies in my stomach just by being this close to him.

"I love you." 

"I love you too ma." He planted a soft kiss on my lips. 

I'm gonna miss this so much but if he meant what he said this distance isn't gonna separate us.

After that we went inside my house and made love for the first time. It was sweet and passionate I've never seen that side of Khallil. He was hard in the streets but so gentle with me. He was my protector and my lover I didn't want anybody else but him. 

Until I met Alvaro, Varo was something new. After I met him, Compton didn't seem so bad. He brought me out of my shell and he accepted me for me, I could be myself around him. It's crazy how fast we clicked, I feel like I've been knowing and loving him for forever but its just been over 1 year. 

But I feel like I fell in love too fast, I fell in love with his good side without knowing his bad side. He was so quick to hurt me, which made me feel as if we was never that serious to him. I thought it was love at first sight but now all I feel is pain and lust when I think of him. Don't get me wrong I love Varo dearly but there's no getting rid of the fact that he hurt me.