poems and ranting :/

intro?

so oof hi, ill give a short description abt me i guess. im a girl, 17, i have multiple mental disorders: generalized anxiety, major depressive disorder, bipolar 2 and bulimia
thats just what im diagnosed with
i have anorexia and ive struggled with that since i was 12, im not diagnosed because i dont let anybody know about that anymore.
im pretty sure i have bpd as well, ive been looking into it and i align with bpd and bipolar 2, theyre both really similar but theres still quite a few differences so yeet :/ i think i have OCD too, i have really obsessive thoughts and i have rituals i do, everything has to be in pairs of 4. four bites, four steps, four taps, literally four of everything. i get super manic and ill clean until theres nothing left but that goes with my bipolar as well :/ my docter thinks i have body dysmorphia but idk. im already seeking to get diagnosed lmao, ik this makes it seem like im an attention seeker but yeet its just reality ig :/

sometimes ill be posting original poems on here, its nothing special or good its just what i do when i feel numb. if i ever post unoriginal poetry ill be sure to credit whoever made it ofc. sometimes ill just rant about random shit, ill most likely be writing about my violent thoughts, please remember that if you get triggered easily. like it said in the description, possible tw since ill be talking about sexual assault, abuse, sex, drugs, self harm, eating disorders, depression, anxiety, obsessive thoughts, intrusive thoughts, mania ect. idk how personal ill actually get tbh so yeet