So, I saw that a lot of people have these, so I'm doing this to. Yeah... IDK. Also I drew the cover because of Jaiden Animations and Boyinaband's Song "Empty" and I needed some Kim angst art, that's one of the eight versions.
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ok, so, time for the more part:
you guys were probably expecting some more art, but tbh, that's all the art i have that's recent. also another thing is, i found myself in a bit of a predicament....
this guy from my theatre told me before he had to go on for a scene, that, a week from then, he was going to start ghosting everybody he knew from the cast as a copping method, and naturall, i started crying, and begged him not to, saying i couldn't lose him, i couldn't lose another friend. so he tells me he'll always pick up the phone if i need to talk
and sure enough, he does
for a week after the set date
but it wasn't him who stopped the contact between us
it was me
because of this text
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(spelling errors exist whoops)
and to make it worse, when i went to get that photo, i saw that he messaged me yesterday, he can tell something's up but i can't bring myself to talk to him, TELL ME WHAT TO DO, PLEASE, I'M ACTUALLY SOBBING, this is not a joke, i'm tearing myself into pieces between talking to him or staying silent, because, i can't find real reasons to do either
i mean, i like him, he's a great friend, and maybe i like him as more than a friend, but every time i text him, he's just like "okay" "good" "cool" "hbu"
also i stopped talking to some of my other friends but i don't feel as bad, they haven't noticed i haven't texted most of them in two weeks
but yeah, i need help, i need advice...
please
gosh i'm so pathetic...
UPDATE:
i talked to him, the guilt was eating me up, i asked him why he was friends with me, "because i want to" was his answer, and then he asked me why i'm friends with him, and i told him, and he said "that's what's called a persona" and "i'm just a random guy you know yet you know nothing about" and so i told him that i wanted to to know him and asked if i was stupid for that, "no" was his reply.
and then he left
i'm sobbing, and my music i'm listening to isn't helping but i love the song too much and feel it rn so i'm just sitting here crying
