Hood Love

Chapter 18

Columbus's POV

Sitting in my room I just keep thinking about Kween. I know what I did was foul but I just wish she would talk to me. I want to explain myself, tell her why I did what I did even though to be honest I really don't know the answer myself. I just wanna tell her how sorry I am about everything and just hold her in my arms. I know she probably hates me right now and with good reason but I wanna move past this and start fresh.

While still in my thoughts I hear the door open and I go downstairs and come face to face with Kween. For a while no words are exchanged but I can see it in her eyes that she is in pain and it hurts me to know that I am the cause of it.

"You really don't want me to have your baby?" She asked.

"It's not that baby I swear."

"Then what is it? I thought you loved me."

"Kween I do love you baby with all my heart and soul."

"Then why did you go to Meagan?"

"I don't know. I was driving around and ended up at her place. I knew I shouldn't have been there but I just couldn't leave. What did you do to your arm? Have you been cutting yourself again?"

"Don't worry about that just tell me why? Of all the people in the world you went to Meagan to get help forgetting I'm having your child. The one person that you know I hated the most. The one person you knew being with would hurt me the most. Did you think that by me seeing you with her I would get an abortion?"

"No Kween please just sit down so we can talk and I can look at your arm."

"No I don't wanna sit down I want answers Columbus so stop bullshitting around with that 'I love you' shit and worrying about my cuts just tell me the truth."

"Fine! The truth is I'm not ready to be a father Kween! I'm not ready leave the game and settle down with you or anybody else. I have a lifestyle that I'm not ready to give up yet. I know I asked you to move in here with me and don't get me wrong you being here is the best decision I have ever made but a baby right now so soon is not what I want."

"Well excuse me Mr. I Hate Condoms but this is what you get when you don't use them and you know what this so-called lifestyle you fighting so hard to keep aint all that."

"You don't be complaining when I'm cashing you out now do you?"

"I can't believe you just went there with me. Columbus I have NEVER asked you for a dime. And for you to stand there and try to throw that in my face is petty."

"No what's petty is you deciding to be extra and cutting your arm. What does it say? liars or something."

"You are such an asshole and no it actually says 'hurt' and you wanna know why."

"Why."

"Because out of all the people around me you were supposed to be the main person I can trust in. you promised me forever yet as soon as times got hard you were quick to walk away and try to tear me down. I'm keeping my baby rather you're in his or her life is up to you. Goodbye Columbus." Without another word I walked out. I never thought we would end this soon but hey, I have to do what's best for me and my unborn child and if Columbus wants to be a whinny bitch about it then oh well. There are plenty of single mothers out there and I don't mind becoming a part of that strong group of women.