Dear diary,
Today would've been our 19 months. Did he notice? Probably not. He was so mean to me for our last 5 months together. He would cuss at me, ignore me for a day or two. Always make me feel guilty. Always lied to me about doing drugs. And other things... he was a liar. What did I do to make him hate me this bad? He said I would always nag at him... but I just cared about him and I wanted to help him. I wonder if he thinks about me. I wonder if he sees things and it reminds him of me. Probably not. He's too busy with her. I'm so sad. I feel empty. Lost. I feel like I'm never gonna get better.
Just hold on
