When did it start?

When?

I'm on the second floor, in a restroom, of the night guide hotel in Shinjuku. I always wanted to come here.
It's amazing, I'm free.

I'm at my friend's house, it's huge. I can't focus on anything at the moment. He keeps asking to play games with him or talk about women but, I can't.

I feel like everything is spinning out of control, in a good sense, and it's exciting. I'm carving myself a new path. Following where my heart leads me.

Just thinking about her makes my heart sink like the titanic taking on water.

I'm elated, in the heart of madness, having a great time. Yet, I can't help wondering what he's doing. I bet he's moping around and sulking, at his friends' house, just like he always used to.

My body feels heavy.
I feel like I could break at any moment.

I feel bad, now that I think about it.

She wouldn't care even if she was here...

He's probably heart broken but he was always like that before; so it's not like anyone will notice any sort of significant change in his demeanour.
Then again,
"My yearning won't fade anytime soon."

I bet she went to that place in Japan, she always wanted to...
Just a while ago I bought a holiday to there, just for the two of us.
I was going to give it to her when we met that evening.
Then I git a text saying;
[It's over. Sorry]
I'm still in shock- I couldn't believe that she didn't even say it to my face.
Yet, "I can't hate her", it just didn't seem like something she'd actually do.

I remember how I agonised over that text , and how when I wasn't going to send it my friends leaned over and hit send instead.
They never liked him.

I bought it upon myself. I really did. Like everything else that's always my fault...

But I guess since he didn't get angry, he didn't care, it was the right thing to do...

I think she started to doubt me about 4 months ago- I dunno - there was just this look in her eyes. One I couldn't describe.

My doubt started 4 months ago. I think he could tell something was wrong. He started looking at me closer like he was searching for that something.

A/N: don't quote me on any places mentioned- never been there so don't know the real names of any hotels in that area.
Ps. Not my art at the top- credit for the image goes to whoever made it.
R&R but nothing super nasty- you wanna do that, do it somewhere else.

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