nothing will be the same.

2.I miss you girl...

ALEX CRANE
I'm in my hotel room in New York trying to sleep but i can't ! I can't stop thinking about what Star did to Simone and I, stop thinking about that now, the only family i had is gone forever.

Urgh, i hate her but i miss her at the same time it's so weird and when i see her on ig, posting pics of herself during tour, this makes me happy and i want to go see her but i can't, she betrayed me !

By thinking about all this, i decided to call Derek to clear my mind. Yes we still good friends and sometimes more (you know what i'm talking about, he is still brotha eggplant 😂) and it's better like this, i'm not really in a real mood to restart this relationship.

I grabbed my phone and called him on FaceTime and he answered right after:

Derek: Hey boo ! How are you ?

Alex: Hey D ! Well kinda confused and all but how about you ?

Derek: Feeling great great ! Wassup ?

Alex: I called you because i can't sleep, i keep thinking about Star and how i miss her and hate her right now.

Derek: Oh ! Well if you really really miss her, you should text her or call before it's too late.

Alex: Yes i know i should do that but i can't ! If somebody needs to call the or her one, it's clearly not me !

Derek: I hate saying this but sometimes babe, i feel like you are not thinking straight like you are an adult, you should know how to deal people and especially with Star, you know her more than anything !

Alex: Yes but, i'm scared ! Imagine that she doesn't answer the phone when she sees my name and i keep telling you, she needs to call me first.

Derek: Well, you won't change your mind, don't you ?

Alex: Nope.

Derek: In that case i only can give you one advice, do what you think it's best for you ok ?

Then he cut the call .
Urrghhh i hate when he does that ! He knows exactly what to say to make me change my mind.
This call didn't really helped me but i might gonna text her tomorrow or in the week, just to check out on her and if everything is okay. Now i just need some rest.