I am not like other girls

I am not like the other girls
And I mean that
I am not soft to the touch
I am rough on the edges
I do not radiate femininity
I am hard to swallow
I do not roll off of your tongue like honey
I am rancid
I am not normal
I am beyond odd

I am not graceful and coordinated
I am gritty and painful
I am not beautiful and stunning
I am difficult to look at
I am not composed
I am shattered all over the place
I am not intellectually inclined
I am confused
I am not someone is loved by many
I am loved by a grain of myself

It is hard to love someone like me
Specifically a woman like me
I have hatred in my heart
I have fits of rage I would not like you to see
I have hurt myself in every way
I have found nothing to celebrate
I have no soulmate
Because I am not like other girls
And I mean that